Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.
I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!
If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email: firstname.lastname@example.org
Thursday, July 9, 2015
The thing about an eating disorder is that either the eating disorder wins or you win
THE THING ABOUT AN EATING DISORDER IS THAT SOMEONE HAS TO DIE FOR IT TO END.
YOU OR ED.
^^^This is something which i want you all to think about....
Its you or your ED. It will either end up with that your ED kills you (and dont take that lightly) or that you kill your ED.
The fact is, an eating disorder is a mental illness which kills. People die from their EDs.... are you going to be one of those?
While i was sick, i knew i could die from my ED. I knew i was so malnourished, i was so sick that i could die. But that was what i wanted. I mean i even attempted suicide several times.
But there were nights where i cried myself to sleep because i didnt want to die. What i wanted was for my ED to die... i didnt want to be sick. I didnt want to live my life the way i was doing.... but i didnt think i'd ever recover. So i thought death was my only way out of the hell i was living.
But thats not the case.
You just need your reason to recover. Whether its because you are so tired of beings ick (which was the case for me). Or because there is something you want to do, but your ED is stopping you... or any other reason. But you have to fight for it.
But what i want you to do today, is to really think about, how you are living life.
Is this the type of life you want to live for the next 20-50 years..... Or will you even live that long, if you are abusing yourself and your body.
There is only so much that your body can take before it starts shutting down.
Also think about, if you are young... the damage you are doing to your body. There are consequences which, you might have to live with.
I.e if you are abusing laxatives, you might not ever be able to go to the bathroom 'without help'. Or you can even ruin the lining of your intestines & cause other problems.
If you purge you are ruining your teeth & your stomach & can even get stomach cancer.
Starvation damages a whole lot in your body, if it goes on for too long.
And of course for females, there is a high chance of osteoporosis and if your period goes away, it might never come back (though often it does), but you can also decrease your chance of ever becoming pregnant.
For me, i have knee, hip and back pain which is a result from my over exercising &bad posture while i was sick. & i have terrible heart burn (which i take medication for, but it hardly helps) and of course, i still have scars from my self harm.
So please think of the consequences.... how will your future look, or will you even have a future?
If you dont beat your ED, your ED will beat you.