Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email: lifewithoutanorexia@hotmail.com

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Wednesday, July 29, 2015

Recovery through pictures - how my body changed, relapse, health (Pictures can be triggering)

When you are struggling and in the depths of an eating disorder you don't relaly see yourself for how you look. But also you might not notice the small things that change as you begin to recover and gain weight such as the smile on your face is no longer fake. Their is a glow in your eyes and your skin looks more radiant. You dont look as tired and pale and you get more energy, you look alive. Your cheeks begin to get more colour and your arms dont hang limp by your side and your legs have energy to carry you around, you begin to look more alive and not just like a walking zombie. So i thought i would show some photos from my recovery. How my body changed but also how you can see that i look more alive and happy!
TRIGGER WARNING IN PHOTOS BELOW:


2010/2011

(A  bloated belly during recovery)

 



Beginning to recover and go against my ED - summer 2011







Beginning to relapse - end of 2011/2012






Middle of 2012 - getting an ultimatum and beginning to focus on recovery and weight gain again













2012 beginning to relapse again



Beginning to focus on health and happiness again.











































You can see the glow, smile, health and happiness on my face. I have gained roughly 26kg from the photos from 2010/2011, and you know what. That number doesnt matter, because what matters is health and happiness. Living life, having energy to live life. Not the number on the scale and that is what you need to remember. The smile on your face, the sparkle in your eyes and the glow from your skin is far more important than the number on the scale. You can see how i change, how it is noticable when i am feeling low and relapsing. Skin, hair, nails and barely able to smile. It is not worth it.

Focus on health, on energy and life!!!!

9 comments:

  1. Such an inspiration...gorgeous Izzy, thanks for sharing!!

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  2. I love this. You are so beautiful and you look great now. I hope one day I can do what you did. Not care about the scale. Yiu are an inspiration.

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  3. You have done amazing. How long did your bloating last? How long did it take for your scars to face? Do you still have scars?

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  4. I wish I could look like you when I am fully recovered... You look amazing. You look so much better.

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  5. It´s just such a difference in your eyes and smile every time you started to recover :) Real happiness in your smile and light in your eyes. You are amazing!

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  6. Wow Izzy this is so stunning *_* unbelievable what you reached!!!!! :) Can´t truly believe how much you changed and how much happiness and life you gained :) you look stunning now and I love it :) Awww *_* and by the way I read you are doing a trip to Lisbon? ;) when exactly are you going? ;) Beeeecause maybe I will do a visit there too very soon :) I would be so glad if you write back :) xxx

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  7. Lovely compilation of images Izzy! I love seeing how your smile becomes real and more defined as you get closer and closer to recovery. So proud of the long way you have come <3.

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  8. I love the picture of you and the Ben and Jerry's! But my G-d you are beautiful!

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  9. Thank u so much for sharing these, it really helped me to see your journey and to see how your face lit up as you got better. It's given me hope and is really inspiring me to maybe let my ed go once and for all. I need to know what to do about hunger and how to justify eating more when I'm gaining at the moment. I feel greedy and scared and i really need help with what to do. Sorry i went off track you look stunning in your latest pictures - ur very beautiful inside and out xxx

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