Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Thursday, July 16, 2015

Recovery motivation

At the beginning of recovery, a stage a lot of us can become stuck with is negotiation. I'll eat, but resist weight gain. I'll maintain, but not gain. Dessert? So long as it's ten calorie jelly and not a slab of chocolate fudge cake. I am not criticising anybody. This is such an easy trap to fall into, and I myself have been here and this unfortunately hindered my progress for a good while. It went on. But would you be giving these foods to anybody else who was severely undernourished-or in fact, ANYBODY that wasn't overweight? Choosing diet foods in recovery isn't what our body needs, it isn't enough. Imagine splitting your knee open. You need stitches and antiseptic and probably a nice big bandage on there-but then you decide to put a plaster on it. It might temporarily slow the damage that is being done, but it won't REPAIR the damage or solve the problem. Every day you spend malnourished or underweight due to an eating disorder is another day destroying your body. Every step you take ,your body shouldn't be taking. Yet you go for a run. You should really should be eating high energy food and lots of it. Yet you monitor the little that goes into your mouth. The cruel nature of the illness is telling us to slow everything down. Recover without weight gain. Recover yet hold onto the illness. Logic, hey? 'I'll get those yogurts-they're only sixty calories, hurrah! Extra extra light cheese spread? Yes please!' Eating disorders often require us to feel justification for eating-so I'm telling you now: a bowl of pasta bolognese and a glass of milk is going to do you a hell of good. So many nutrients in there. Don't fall into the trap of thinking you're being good to your body by eating 'low-fat' foods and diet meals and that this is helping your recovery. Choosing not to loose any more weight again is just slapping your eating disorder in the face. You need to knock it to the ground and make it clear that it although it's something you might want some days, that it does you no good at all. Build yourself up with chocolate milk and flapjacks and chicken and bagels and destroy that bitch.

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