Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
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Saturday, July 25, 2015

Friday evening barbeque and a sleepless night

Good Morning :)
   I've just woken up and i am feeling slightly disorientated! Waking up at 10am is not the norm for me and now it just feels weird waking up so late. But despite having a really good evening and feeling tired when i came home as soon as i lay down and was going to fall asleep my mind was like..." nope!!"  The bed was too uncomfortable, it was too warm, i started getting creeped out that i was all alone (which never happens as i am neither afraid of being alone or the dark) but my mind kept coming up with all these weird scenarios where someone is hiding in the house or creeps in through the balcony  etc etc So i ended up being awak until around 2am and then falling asleep and waking up around 4am becuase it was too warm and uncomfortable and then staying awake until around 6am and thought, i might as well try to sleep an hour or two but ended up sleeping until 10am. Which is nice that i got some hours of sleep anyway :)

Onto other things... my sleeping i am sure isnt that interesting - its interesting to me, but somethings are best kept to oneself i guess :)

Yesterday i had a lovely evening with my boyfriend and his family, I also got to meet his sister who was very nice :) Though i do wonder what she thought of me XD   For dinner it was a barbeque and they grilled salmon, chicken, paprika and different meats which they ate as well as there being a delicious bread, cheeses, salads and more to pick from :) I love these types of dinners because we sat outside and enjoyed the evening sun, and it was just to pick and choose what you wanted to eat and how much and i love grilled food as well, so it was 10/10 :) hahha. But it also feels good that i am so welcomed by my boyfriend's parents, i mean its not uncommon for your partners parents to maybe not like you, but from what i can percieve they don't mind me anyway!!! :)

There was alot of positivity yesterday but also some 'negatives' which just made me want to sigh...

1) My water bottle spilled in my bag and one of my tubs of medicine had opened and mixed with the water so it became a type of white powder which covered all the things in my bag. And then when i went to grab my purse while paying in a shop i suddenly had all this white powder over my hands and purse and i was like...." what?" hahah

2) When i came back from my evening away and came home i saw that Daisy had gotten a little crazy! When she gets restless she can be naughty and so had begun to pull out things from under my bed - such as bags and things - and had also gone rooting in the bin. So it was just one big mess XD

Those were 2 of the many.... "Less positives" of the day yesterday!!!

Today i will just take the day as it comes and see what i feel like i doing :)


  1. what is the type of bread that you have it looks really nice - is that Swedish?

    1. I am not so sure what type of bread it was, or where it was bought. But it was a walnut bread, and i am guessing its swedish :) I dont think it was home made anyway!