Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
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Sunday, July 12, 2015

Breaking the bad habits/routines

When you are recovering you need to get rid of all the bad eating disorder habits and routines you have. It is said that it takes 21 days to form a habit, though i am not sure how long it takes to break a habit.... but it takes a while anyway. And if it is a habit or routine you have had for a long time it can take even longer to break, but sometimes you need new routines and habits. Especially if the ones you have are unhealthy and destructive. 

When you are changing habits and routines it can often cause some form of stress, anxiety and guilt... you are doing something different. Stepping outside of your comfort zone.... for example if you are the type of person to get up at 10am everyday and then you start working and have to get up at 6am everyday. In the beginning it is tough, you dont like it and it feels strange. But eventually you adapt and learn to go to bed earlier and not feel as tired in the morning and then suddenly getting up at 6am is no longer a problem, it is the same with other habits and routines. In the beginnig it is tough, but then you learn to cope and adapt and it gets better and you form better and hopefully healthier habits. The worst thing you can do is go from one unhealthy habit to another one... for example if you wak everywhere all the time and you decide to break that habit but instead end up spending 3 hours at the gym each day to compensate, that isnt really forming a healthier habit, instead you are just compensating.
So be prepared for anxiety and some guilt, though it doesnt have to be that way.... infact some habits or routines are very easily broken once you atleast TRY. Others take longer time and are harder to break.

Begin with slowly changing one of your habits... for example if you do X amount of squats/sit ups etc etc in the morning/evenings etc then try halfing the amount you do, then eventually every second day dont do them at all and eventually dont do them at all.... and hopefully someday doing x squats and sit ups before bed wont even be a thought of yours because you know that they are unnecessary. 

Try to slowly change your habits and cut down, find a healthy way to cope with anxiety such as talking, writing, drawing, listening to music, meditating etc Sit with the anxiety, take deep breathes and know that it will get better and easier in time. It is always hardest in the beginning, but if you keep going, then it wont be as hard anymore. Give yourself 4-8 weeks where you keep trying each day to get rid of the habit(s) and routine(s) you have.

The goal is that you will be free, that you will have habits and routines that are healthy ones.... ones that arent compulsive or obsessive, but ones you can live with and be happy with.

Setting up goals or ultimatums or telling someone else of your plan to change the habits can be a good way as they can help motivate you. Or get someone else to help you make the change or to change with you, it can all be ways to motivate you :)

1 comment:

  1. I still have so many 'bad habits' and OCD/ obsessed with routines etc. This past year I have made changes, then gone backwards again - - like a yo-yo effect.

    Do you think a sudden change in environment would help them alter, more permanently?

    When a big hurdle for me is laxative abuse {very long term}, and I am aware of the damage it already has done/ continues to do...

    I know you only for a little time used laxatives, but would you think that the body can/ will adjust? in time?

    what if time is limited?

    Hope you don't mind me asking a few questions Izzy! Thank you Xx