Life without Anorexia

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My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

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Thursday, June 11, 2015

Why you shouldnt only focus on the scale

I am someone who really doesnt care so much about the scale. I dont care about the number on the scale because it doesnt have so much meaning for me. Of course its a good way to tell me whether my weight is categorized as healthy or underweight but by now i know my body so well that i would notice if i were to lose alot of weight. Also the fact that i am not on the border of healthy or unhealthy.

Naturally i have always been on the underweight side. Growing up i had to drink 2 scandishake milkshakes as well as a high calorie diet to try to gain weight but all i did was maintain my weight which was according to the BMI scale, underweight. But my body was functioning fine though i did have a low immune system due to my underweight and my CF. When i developed my eating disorder and became more sick the scale and my weight were something that began causing alot of anxiety and i did all i could to lose weight, not have my weight go up. Not go above X kilo... i was never happy, i always weighed too much. I argued, i cried, i pleaded... all to try to get my case manager to lower my goal weight. It was too high, i didnt think i could ever reach that weight and if i could i never believed i could be happy. But here i am 5/7kilo HEAVIER than my goal weight Mando gave me. 25/27kilo heavier than my lowest weight and 10/12kilo heavier than the weight i promised myself i would never go above. And i am happier than ever in my body. I feel healthy and energetic which is what matters most. The number on the scale really doesnt matter so much and it matters even less when you strength train because YES...the scale does go up. Or it goes +/-/0 but in general if you strength train expect your weight to go up.... but even in general exercise causes stress for the body and so can cause water retention which causes = + on the scale.

But you know what also makes a difference on the scale, how much you have eaten, how much you have drank, whether you have been to the bathroom or not and also things such as water retention and hormones. For girls, when its that time of month they will notice they bloat alot and hold onto water. Not a nice feeling but that is how the body works.
  Yesterday at the gym i decided to weigh myself as i knew i was holding onto water and felt very bloated and i weighed X kilo... felt a little surprised that it was so 'high' but i shrugged it off and moved on. Then today i noticed that i wasnt as bloated and so i decided to weigh myself again and see if there was any difference... and there was a 3,5kg difference i.e 7.7lbs. Which was just water (i am guessing): Because i didnt eat differently, drink differently or do anything differently yesterday. Infact i ate roughlt 175g salted nuts, lots of caramel chocolate and other things yesterday.

^But that just shows how you shouldnt just rely on the scale or start to panic because suddenly you weigh more than normal. The scale measures everything, it cant tell you the difference between bone, water, muscle, hair etc
  When you are stressed or bloated it often leads to + on the scale, but that really shouldnt matter. Because honestly what does it matter if you weigh X kilo or Y kilo? Do you want to live your life only focused on weighing a certain number when that number will ALWAYS be changing because as you get older the number will increase or decrease. Do you want to waste your life by only chasing a certain number on the scale. A number which really doesnt mean much and no one else knows about? Seriously the number doesnt mean so much, what matters most is HEALTH and happiness. Both physical and mental health.

And on a sidenote, in the beginnig of recovery and weight gain you can gain anything from 2-7kg in the first week as that is water retention. And when you are very bloated it will often be a + on the scale.

Also another side note i DONT weigh myself, this was the first time in forever. I get weighed every 6-8 weeks when i go to the CF clinic, and thats the only time i weigh myself. But i saw the scale at the gym and thought i would do an experiment to see.... and it showed what i had expected. I.e bloat = water retention = number decreases when bloat is gone.

If your doctor has given you a goal weight, REACH THAT GOAL WEIGHT. Its for your bodies best. And let go of the number, dont care whether its X or Y, there are other things to focus on in life. You need to let your body find its healthy set point whether that is BMI 18,5 or BMI 22 or BMI 24 its different for everyone.






10 comments:

  1. That's super interesting and enlightening. What a huge difference in the way the body processes food and retains water! Do you notice what causes such big bloat for you? What factors do you think influence bloat the most or make a bigger difference? Thank you for sharing!

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    1. haha, not sure why it is such a difference. I think its my salt intake and because i drink so much water... and just hormones in general. :)

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  2. Do you think my weight increase is due to water etc

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    1. It could be, it depends on different things. But know that if you have gone up like 1+kg in a day then its just water or food andnot actual 'weight gain'.

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  3. Thank you so much for this Izzy, I'm pushing through to try and let my body reach its set point, and not just try to maintain the lowest possible healthy weight I could be, so thank you for this post! Xx

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    1. I am glad it helped :) Focus on health, that is the most important!

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  4. Thanks so much for writing this post Izzy. I want to get to the stage you're at. I want to not care about my weight because it is so all-consuming that I no longer have a life. I want to have the freedom you have from the scale, it seems beautiful to not care. So free. Xx

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    1. Stay strong and keep fighting! You need to fight the thoughts in your head, know that you are more than a number and your weight really doesnt matter so much. It can help to not look on the scale when you get weighed, let go of the number. Accept that you have a goal weight you need to reach and you NEED to reach that weight. But the actual number doesnt matter because it will go up and down anyway!

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  5. I think that when you try to reach a healthy weight you should focus more on body fat percentage, because it is possible to be healthy with a low weight ( a bmi that I considered underweight ) but with an healthy bodyfat.

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    1. Thats true. Its important to have both a healthy weight and a healthy fat procent, but i think having a healthy mind set and healthy body is more important than acertain number. Blood tests and such can tell alot more than just a certain number.

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