Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Monday, June 15, 2015

Tips for recovery

Tips For Recovery

Positive Things About Recovery
  • More head-space for hopes and dreams
  • Stopping the cycle of negative, shaming, depressing, sick thinking
  • Getting lost in laughter
  • Regaining trust
  • Having eyes full of Life
  • Finding an identity outside of food
  • Enjoy food?? YES!!
  • A social life? THAT TOO!!
  • Discovering worth beyond the number on the scale
  • Life less interrupted (without going to treatment and whatnot)
  • Having a less judgmental head
  • Better body temperature regulation
  • Self love
  • Self acceptance
  • Physical activity for FUN
  • The option to procreate
  • Experience emotions, not just be numb
  • More energy!
  • More joy
  • Family and friends aren’t that worried anymore
  • In the morning, not dreading the day to come
  • Freedom from the insidious monster (Ed)
  • Physical strength, weariness diminished
  • Negating the lies that are screaming when confronted by a mirror
  • No more body comparisons
  • So much less anxiety ( when further along in recovery )
  • A mind for beautiful creative thinking, not calculating calories
  • Glow-y skin
  • To help others
  • Enjoy Life
  • Making goals
  • Beating death
  • Having pride for accomplishments (well deserved)
  • Gratitude for little things
  • Confidence
  • Motivation
  • Having Hope
  • Genuine smiles
  • Being able to inspire someone
  • Saying NO when necessary and not feeling so guilty
  • Things can actually be funny
  • Progress not perfecktion
  • Breaking problems into baby steps, more manageable, higher chances for success
  • Being able to relax
  • Eye contact
  • Staying in the moment
To Improve Body Image: Courtesy of NEDA
  • Put away your scale.
  • Laugh it off.
  • Dress to feel comfortable.
  • Draw attention to parts of your body you are proud of.
  • Walk proud.
  • Put away your skinny clothes.
  • Start the morning with good grooming.
  • Recognize that your thinking about your body may be distorted.
  • Realize you are not being singled out because you think you have gained weight.
  • Be comfortable and familiar with your body.
To Cope with Eating
  • Change the subject when other people talk about food, weight, or body size and shape.
  • Set a routine – eat three well-balanced meals that are satisfying.
  • Make menus for a day ahead of time and post them.
  • Eat with people who do not bug you about eating.
  • Make lunch your main meal.
  • Have a back-up plan for eating if you can’t eat a meal.
  • Develop a support system for times when eating has been a problem.
  • Plan things to do at times when other people are snacking.
  • Avoid alcohol. It is a set-up for a binge.
  • Occupy yourself after a meal.
  • Walk away from the table after meals.
  • Plan healthy snacks.
  • Eat healthy foods instead of junk foods.
  • Make meals ahead of time.
  • Plan meals a day ahead of time.
  • Make a date to eat with someone.
  • Set your meal times 4 to 5 hours apart.
  • Don’t buy binge foods.
  • Make a shopping list and stick to it.
  • Eat before you go to a party (Do not go hungry).
  • Set a time limit for eating.
  • Make sure to enjoy more about your meal than just the food.
  • Stay away from bathrooms after meals.
  • Start the day with breakfast.
  • Make decisions about eating and stick to them.
  • If you have trouble knowing when you are hungry, plan to eat regularly.
To Control Urges to Binge
  • Work on hobbies and handcrafts.
  • Go for a walk.
  • Watch a movie.
  • Take a risk. Do something different.
  • Talk to and pet animals.
  • Don’t take extra money when you go out.
  • Shop.
  • Take a nap.
  • Clean (for yourself, not for others).
  • Give up childhood by looking at the past; pictures, scrap books, etc.).
  • Talk with someone supportive.
  • Avoid the kitchen when you walk in the door.
  • Take a walk before coming into the house in the evening.
  • Listen to music.
  • Take a warm shower or bath.
To Deal with Feelings after a Binge
  • Forgive yourself.
  • Allow yourself to feel forgiven.
  • Find something else to do.
  • Get away from your eating place.
  • Talk with someone else. You may or may not talk about your eating behaviors.
  • Nurture yourself even if you don’t feel like it.
  • Try self-talk. Say you do not look any different than you did a few minutes ago.
  • Get yourself back on track with routine eating.
To Improve Your Self-Esteem
  • Start the morning with self-care, grooming to feel your best.
  • Acknowledge your feelings.
  • Be creative (crafts, music, clothing, etc.).
  • Look back on awards and achievements.
  • Display a “brag wall.”
  • Keep a scrapbook or photo album handy to review proud moments.
  • Make a checklist of accomplishments.
  • Learn something new.
  • Become an expert at something and talk about it.
  • Assert your opinion when you feel confident.
  • Take a self-defense class.
  • Allow yourself to feel angry.
  • Ask for help and support.
  • Allow yourself to be good enough, not perfect.
  • Accept compliments without reservations.
  • Take a self-awareness or assertiveness class.
To Tell Yourself You’re Okay
  • Set short term goals one day at a time.
  • Look at the positives of being away from your symptoms.
  • Anticipate good times and how you might handle bad times.
  • Forgive yourself.
  • Keep a diary and write your good and bad feelings.
  • Encourage yourself with self-pep talks.
  • Tell yourself that you are normal.
  • Tell yourself you need to eat to keep your energy level up.
  • Review your strengths.
  • Mark a calendar every day you keep symptoms in control and look back at your own improvement.
  • Allow yourself quiet time.
  • Get satisfaction from relationships rather than from food.
  • Tell yourself your number one priority is your health.
  • Remember the positives of not getting involved with symptoms.
  • Make a transition from work to home with a quiet time.
To Nuture/Reward Yourself
  • Shop for yourself.
  • Take a bath.
  • Set money aside for a goal.
  • Vacation.
  • Wear clothes that have special meaning for you.
  • Wear perfume.
  • Ask someone else to give you a foot or back massage.
  • Get your hair or nails done.
  • Listen to music you like.
  • Snuggle.
  • Have lunch with a friend-make the food secondary.
  • Window shop.
  • Buy yourself flowers.
  • Call a friend.
  • Read a novel.
  • Pretend to be a child, then consciously return to being an adult.
  • Go to a movie.
  • Pat yourself on the back.
  • Tell yourself you have done well.
  • Allow yourself to vegetate.
  • Buy new makeup.
  • Steal time for yourself even if you are busy.
To Deal with Feeling Isolated
  • Be a volunteer.
  • Go someplace where you can be with people even if you do not want to talk.
  • Call a supportive person.
  • Join in a group game.
  • Join an club.
  • Make eye contact with people around you; smile and be open to others approaching you.
  • Plan activities with friends or family.
  • Read to someone else.
  • Develop a hobby and go to specialty meetings.
  • Join a choir or a band.
To Deal with Tension
  • Accept your feelings as they are.
  • Cry, scream, let it all out.
  • Make yourself a “scream room” where you can be loud.
  • Shout into a pillow.
  • Designate a pillow as someone you are mad at and talk to it.
  • Punch a pillow, your mattress.
  • Be assertive about your rights.
  • Avoid small upsets that accumulate to a big blow up.
  • Exercise but remember that exercise can’t replace saying what is bothering you.
  • Use humor.
  • Learn to relax.
  • Practice saying your feelings to a mirror or tape recorder.
  • Keep a journal.
  • Change the subject.
To Hold Your Own Assertively
  • Expect and extend courtesy to and from everyone-even your family.
  • Acknowledge the other person’s rights.
  • Say what you want, but be willing to negotiate.
  • Say what you need and insist on your rights.
  • Assume you are on equal standing with everyone.
  • Allow yourself time outs to feel mentally stronger.
  • Keep good eye contact but do not stare.
  • Keep yourself open to other people by looking around.
  • Use your support system and ask for positive feedback.
  • When things are not going well, do not assume it is all your fault.
  • Clarify what is going on; ask other people.
  • Accept your own feelings, choose if you want to act on them.
  • Understand that you may not have a choice. You may have to disagree but go along. Let people know you disagree and then get on with it.