Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email:


Tuesday, June 16, 2015

Talk to people - you need proffessional help

The best piece of advice which i can give you all is to: Talk to someone.

I know how tough it is... trust me i know this. The reason i started blogging was because i couldnt talk about what was in my head. I had so many thoughts, feelings and emotions weighing me down and one way for me to cope was to write it down. I still struggle with talking about my problems and what is happening in my head and thoughts but slowly i am opening up and it does make a world of difference. I have made mistakes, i have done stupid things and i have had thoughts that have scared me even though i have recovered. But i have talked about them because i have known that i have to. That when there are things that you can't handle on your own you NEED to ask for help, you need to talk to someone so that you dont struggle alone.

It can be easier to email someone, or to email me or ask me for advice and that is fine, i am here to help. But in the end you need someone who is close to you, someone who you can either call or reach out to for help when you need it. You need to be honest to yourself and others about how you are feeling. If you have done something wrong, if you are suffering or struggling you NEED to ask for help. You NEED to talk about it. No matter how hard it is, you need to open up. Whether that means writing a note or sending a message to someone close to you.
  I know a strategy for some in recovery is to send a message to a friend or family member if they are struggling... it can be easier that way for them. A simple 'will you eat lunch with me?' or 'i cant choose between yoghurt or a sandwich' can be a huge help to you.

You need to remember that depression, eating disorders, exercise addictions, OCD, bipolar, self harm etc they are all mental illnesses. So no matter what your weight you still need help, you dont need to 'look' sick, or look like the stereotypical person who suffers from the illness. Also the illnesses are often very secretive, you dont want to show you are suffering, you dont want to ask for help. But the illnesses are also extremely destructive and lead to negative consequences in both the long and short term. It is NOT worth it.

Talking to people who have been through the same thing as you or who are currently struggling with the same issues can be a great help. But it is NOT enough and DOES NOT replace real treatment or talking to a doctor/therapist/dietician. ONLINE does not replace proffessaional help.

It is NOT enough to ask some random recoverer about their meal plan or ask them to make you a meal plan or to ask some random 'qualified' pt to make you a meal plan. It is not enough to just rely on online people. Of course recovery has to come from YOU and you CAN recover on your own at home, that is fully possible. Dont doubt at home recovery though i will ALWAYS recommend proffessional help. Whether that is inpatient, daypatient or just a therapist. I believe that you need to talk to someone who can help you and give you advice face to face. And then you need to actually listen and take that advice on board. Put the advice into action, because it is not enough for someone to just tell you that you wont gain weight from eating 5 meals a day or that eating chocolate 3 days a week wont make a difference to your body or weight. You need to put those things to the test, otherwise you will still live with the fear until you try it.

I know recovery is tough, but you need to break free from your comfort zone and TALK ABOUT YOUR PROBLEMS. If you are doing things which you know you shouldnt, if you are throwing away food/purging/self harming/exercising when you shouldnt/binging etc TALK about it. If you have gone from restrictive to binging/if you have begun relapsing/if exercise is becoming something negative or an addiction then talk about it... DONT let it sprial and go further. You know what you are doing and you need to remember that this is your life, so you can let those things control you and ruin your life or you can be brave enough to ask for help and know that things will eventually get better. But the first step is to admit what you are doing and that you want to change.

You arent always ready for change, that is why you need to ask someone to help you make the change!!

^^Dont let it go this far... dont be this person. I have been this person far too long in my life and i am still like this, but i can tell you that it doesnt help anyone and especially not yourself.


  1. Definitely agree ♥ I also always thought therapy was useless but have now been sticking through with the same psychologist for a year and a half and having a place where I don't need to pretend I'm okay and let the thoughts and feelings drive me insane helps so much. They also help you train your thoughts to be more realistic and rational.

    1. I'm glad it has helped you!! :) that's what therapists are for, where you can be honest and get the help and advice you need!