The cons of having such a big blog, but also it not being so secret anymore.... it means that every word - mostly - has to be thought about before published. Ive sat here for the past 15 minutes writing something and then deleting it because i realise either its unnecessary information or its information i dont want to/need to share or i cant publish something just because i am aware of my readers and who they may be.
Granted this blog is no longer my own online diary. Its no longer a place i write out my thoughts, but it's a place where i help others, hopefully anyway. Blogging really is quite strange when i think about it... but i love it and even if i have thoughts of giving it up because its very time consuming or because well its not something i do to 'help myself' anymore, it is something i enjoy and i know i help others which is something i love as well!
This post is becoming alot shorter than i had planned because i can't quite put my thoughts into words. But what i am trying to formulate is how sometimes i wish my blog was still the anonymous little blog where i wrote down everything in my head. Though i guess there is still a good old pen and paper which is great for that! hahaah. Not everything has to be shared on the cyberworld... but after 5 years of regular blogging i guess wanting to write out all my thoughts online is just a habit!! XD
Anyway, before i start writing too much or start to diverge from the topic because i'm so tired, i will just end this muddled and jumbled post here and say.... i have had a great day wandering around the city in the sun! Eating berries, watching people, trying to talk with a non existent voice and also meeting two of my 'old' teachers XD

After a 5 year struggle with anorexia (with purging tendencies), depression, self harm and over exercising I have now been recovered for 4 years and i use my blog to help others in the same situation i once was. I am now a happy and positive person who wants to inspire those struggling to choose recovery and to take control over life and happiness again!
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My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.
I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!
If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email: lifewithoutanorexia@hotmail.com

I totally get what you mean! My blog is no where near as big as yours, but my family and friends check in on it constantly, so I feel like I have to filter myself a looooot more than I used to. I'm filtering myself a lot because of future employment opportunities and stuff like that too. I want to be a PR person, so I can't have any dodgy stuff online. Ha.
ReplyDeleteMaybe you could start a completely separate anonymous blog if you felt the need :) I have been toying with that idea for the last month or so. I'm about to go pick up a journal so I can write my thoughts out as well :) It feels so old-school to be saying that haha.
Exactly. It's both for future jobs but also because I know my family and my boyfriend read my blog at times. So not everything can be posted. I have thought about that but everything gets connected online so I'm sure it would somehow be linked... its better to keep some things to yourself as well I guess ;);) back to pen and paper!! Hahaha. It's funny when you have a blog you are just so used to writing and publishing things online XD
DeleteI completely agree. While my recovery is ALL about my recovery, it is such a strange thing! I just do my best to be completely authentic with my readers and stay true to myself. I want to depict recovery for what it is: hard, but worth it.
ReplyDeleteExactly :) I am very honest on here but somethings I can't bring up or mention because I am aware of who my readers are. But before I didn't need to think about that.
Deletemay I ask what you think about the nellie dellies? i think they taste great but I only tried them once since I got a bad bloat from eating them and it really hurt?:s
ReplyDeleteI really like them :) but they contain alot of fiber so should be eaten in moderation. That's why yiu bloat and get stomach pains.
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