Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Saturday, June 13, 2015

Running - you love it and hate it at the same time

Running! !! It's strange how you can love and despise (in some ways) something so much at the same time. But if I'm honest it's 95% love and just that 5% when you feel like dying and promise yourself never again. Though once you cross that finish line you are already planning your next run! An addiction running races, but a good addiction!! :) :)
I had to be at the starting line an hour before my race time began to pick up my number bib. So once I had done that I sat in the shadow, sipped on juice and water as it was 25 degrees outside. Then I began talking with another runner and warmed up with him and talked about running which was fun!!
And then suddenly it was 12.20 and time to stand by the start line! And then the buzzer went off and it was time to start running...... and damn! !! It was warm, there were seriously 101 uphills and it was tough.tough.tough.
  I wanted to lie down, stop to try to breath and I kept saying never again. The heat was awful and all the uphills as well as my lungs saying no. But finally I crossed the finish line with a smile (or maybe it was pain?) On my face... I'm not really sure, hahah!!!
Sitting down, drinking lots of water and juice, talking with some runners and then a km run to where my boyfriend had parked the car! !
Both pain and joy, but mostly enjoyment. Though running in this type of heat is hard, that's why I prefer my 8am morning runs.  Don't need to suffer heat stroke!!


  1. OMG!! You are so gorgeous! It looked like a lot of fun:)

    1. It was alot of fun!! :) Thank you so much!!

  2. Sounds like so much fun. And you look great. You look so much healthier now and so happy. Are you doing more races?

  3. Wow *_* this is so motivating how you keep up fighting for reaching all of your goals ;) it is so cool, how you never give up and push yourself forward ;) I hope you enjoyed the raaaaaace <3 xxx Ange

  4. Wow, sounds amazing but hard, you got me wanting to go back running so bad once I'm through with anorexia, I miss it loads. Hope you enjoyed yourself overall! Xx

  5. So how did you do time wise? This might sound invasive so only answer if your comfortable . I'm always curious about time . My friends get annoyed by this... ��