Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Saturday, June 27, 2015

Restless night

Note to self: don't drink 500ml + of soda, a cup of green tea, cup of tea and lots of water close to going to bed. (And yes I ate as well ).

I am very tolerant to caffeine - infact I can drink an energy drink and 8 or 9pm and fall asleep an hour later. But it feels like the caffeine was just a little too much because 1) I needed to pee every 20 minutes and 2) I got so much energy and felt so restless.

My bed is soft and so comfy, but last night it felt like I was lying on the ground. Could not get comfortable, the mattress just felt too hard and uncomfortable. So from 12 until 3/4am I tossed and turned and could not fall asleep. I considered going for a walk to get rid of energy but felt a little unsafe to be out walking at that time. .... though now when I think about it, on my list of 101 things to do I wrote I wanted to do something at 2am in the morning and to go out running sometime in the early morning (I. E a weird time like 2-4am). So i should have done it.... Because I just lay there not feeling the least bit tired and having an overload of energy. Wanting to sleep but not being able to ......  and then I woke up around 8am, feeling a little tired. But I think the tiredness will hit later today, which won't be good as the race starts at 9pm tonight!! XD Will have to make sure to take a nap sometime today!

I also realised that i didnt write so much yesterday, i was busy all day doing things so didnt think about updating my blog. The massage i went to yesterday was definitely helpful for my muscles though i wouldnt call it a 'relaxing' massage as it was so light in the room and the massage therapist talked and asked a few too many questions for me to be able to relax. Also the fact that the massage table kept squeaking all the time so i just felt like laughing! But it still helped my body relax anyway and apparently my shoulders and neck are very tense which might be what is causing my recent headaches. Now i have a reason to get people to massage my neck and shoulders more frequently anyway :)

Today i have lots to do as well.... Always busy. So going to try get all those things done in the morning and then my boyfriend will come over and keep me company until its time to head to the race!! :)

First thing: Breakfast


  1. Izzy, I wounder what "Alltså" means in English? I see sweedish people (I think) on instagram comment that on your pictures and on other sweedish people's pictures. What does it mean, google translate says it means "that is" or "thus" - but that doesn't make sense :P

    1. Hmmm i dont think there is a direct translation. .. like the swedish word "lagom" there is no direct translation. For example.... "du måste gå upp i vikt, alltså du måste äta mer" = you need to gain weight, meaning you need to eat more. (I can't really give you an actual definition though, sorry...) maybe some of my swedish followers see this and can describe it better :)

  2. GOod luck with the race later on! Xx