Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email: lifewithoutanorexia@hotmail.com

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Tuesday, June 23, 2015

Feeling happy and strong

What a good day!!! I just want to smile all evening :) it's such a nice feeling :)
My day started in the best way possible, sleeping in (until 9, hahah) and waking up beside my boyfriend! I also washed my hair which instantly makes me happy and  good about myself! It's funny how such a small thing makes such a difference!! We ended up eating breakfast really late today and then spent the next 90 minutes trying to decide what to do and eventually decide to go out for lunch and then I had a workout planned.

My boyfriend had gone a month without pizza so we decided to go to a pizza place so he could finally eat one again :) as I don't like melted cheese (or cheese in getneal) I went for a chicken salad which had sundried tomatoes and other delicious things with garlic bread on the side!!! Filling and soo soo good!! I can eat pizza but I don't personally like it (trust me I've eaten it several times to prove to my family and myself that it's not a fear food.) But if i get to choose I choose to not eat it.
Then I headed to the gym filled with energy and followed my new create workout plan and it was soo much fun. The time just flew by and I had so much energy and strength. This new motivation and energy found!! And afterwards I was just smiling, even when I missed the train and had to wait 10 minutes I felt so happy!

This is what I need.... New goals, a type of routine and some sort of schedule. This new workout plan is going to make a difference in my mood,in my life.... not feeling so lost. But focusing on strength, new energy found! I love it :) and can't deny, it would be nice to notice progress (not meaning physical, but i would mind a bigger butt XD) in the next few weeks! :) Whether that means +/- some kilo i dont really know or care, whatever happens happens!

Then home and plans to eat delicious food and watch a series and go to bed early. Because tomorrow I have the first day of my annual CF check ups where they basically test everything and do all these types of tests. And tomorrow I need to fast until after 12pm and I need to be at the hospital at 7am :( and I'm not even allowed to drink water unter after 12pm.... I have no idea how I will manage :( I mean I'm not normally so hungry in the mornings but after being awake so long (have to get up around 5/5.30am) i know that I will have low blood sugar and be super hangry. Hahah. Good thing I'm going alone so that I don't act like a bitch to anyone! !! Though I think it's stupid I have to fast so long. :( Hahahah I can barely go 2-3 hours in the day without eating,  but I am going to eat a super mega huge night snack and hopefully that will give me energy :)

Also now when I think about it.... no coffee tomorrow :( already have anxiety about all the tests and spending a whole day (and thursday) in hospital,  but now no coffee, food or water :( #problems




5 comments:

  1. Yeah! Good for you! My day went great as well. I wrote 6,5 pages with ease and trapped a mosquito under the toilet seat lid. What else could you ask for?

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  2. Hi Izzy, I'd love to know if you have ever got stuck in a exercise rut. I love exercising, I always have, and I lived in the mountains so I had more activities. Now I live in a city and I go on my stationary bike or elliptical, all the time. I'm getting bored with the same thing but I can't afford a gym membership and its hard to do anything outside. I want to do other things and be more spontaneous but can't think of any other things to do that's actually fun. Any ideas or tips on getting into strength training?

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  3. So glad you're feeling better! ♥♥ I'd love to hear this new workout plan for the butt, mine needs a bit of a boost too!! Haha ;)

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  4. Nice to hear you're feeling good today! :) I recently had to fast (no food or water, or gum or anything!!!) until 4 pm. I hated it. Although it made me wonder how the heck i managed to go without food for days when I had Anorexia. Man, recovery rules! ;) Happy you have figured out a workout schedule. Which exercises are you focusing on now? :)

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  5. Glad to hear you're feeling so good! It brings a smile to my face! It sounds like you had a lovely day. I hope your next few days at the hospital go ok, and hope the fasting isn't triggering or too hard for you! Xx

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