Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.
I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.
I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: firstname.lastname@example.org
Tuesday, June 23, 2015
Feeling happy and strong
What a good day!!! I just want to smile all evening :) it's such a nice feeling :)
My day started in the best way possible, sleeping in (until 9, hahah) and waking up beside my boyfriend! I also washed my hair which instantly makes me happy and good about myself! It's funny how such a small thing makes such a difference!! We ended up eating breakfast really late today and then spent the next 90 minutes trying to decide what to do and eventually decide to go out for lunch and then I had a workout planned.
My boyfriend had gone a month without pizza so we decided to go to a pizza place so he could finally eat one again :) as I don't like melted cheese (or cheese in getneal) I went for a chicken salad which had sundried tomatoes and other delicious things with garlic bread on the side!!! Filling and soo soo good!! I can eat pizza but I don't personally like it (trust me I've eaten it several times to prove to my family and myself that it's not a fear food.) But if i get to choose I choose to not eat it.
Then I headed to the gym filled with energy and followed my new create workout plan and it was soo much fun. The time just flew by and I had so much energy and strength. This new motivation and energy found!! And afterwards I was just smiling, even when I missed the train and had to wait 10 minutes I felt so happy!
This is what I need.... New goals, a type of routine and some sort of schedule. This new workout plan is going to make a difference in my mood,in my life.... not feeling so lost. But focusing on strength, new energy found! I love it :) and can't deny, it would be nice to notice progress (not meaning physical, but i would mind a bigger butt XD) in the next few weeks! :) Whether that means +/- some kilo i dont really know or care, whatever happens happens!
Then home and plans to eat delicious food and watch a series and go to bed early. Because tomorrow I have the first day of my annual CF check ups where they basically test everything and do all these types of tests. And tomorrow I need to fast until after 12pm and I need to be at the hospital at 7am :( and I'm not even allowed to drink water unter after 12pm.... I have no idea how I will manage :( I mean I'm not normally so hungry in the mornings but after being awake so long (have to get up around 5/5.30am) i know that I will have low blood sugar and be super hangry. Hahah. Good thing I'm going alone so that I don't act like a bitch to anyone! !! Though I think it's stupid I have to fast so long. :( Hahahah I can barely go 2-3 hours in the day without eating, but I am going to eat a super mega huge night snack and hopefully that will give me energy :)
Also now when I think about it.... no coffee tomorrow :( already have anxiety about all the tests and spending a whole day (and thursday) in hospital, but now no coffee, food or water :( #problems