Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
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Monday, June 15, 2015

Extra food = extra energy. Extra exercise = more food.

The body is an amazing thing and so is the metabolism. The body, nutrition and exercise are things which fascinate me alot and i love learning more about them and how they work. Which is why i am excited to learn more about them in my future studies, but for now i thought i would talk about food and energy.

Also, feel free to comment and correct me if anything is wrong or you want to add some type of correct term or definition or description if necessary!

As you should know, the sun and it's rays(?) = energy. Plants use the sun energy to create energy for themselves, then an animal eats the plants and gets its energy in that way and is then eaten by another animal etc etc The foodchain basically.
  So food is energy (and the energy is made up of macronutrients) and our body NEEDS energy. Think of a car without oil/energy it doesnt get very far... and it is the same with our bodies. Of course we can last around 3 weeks without any food, but the amount of energy you have is limited and your organs and other functions begin to shut down or slow down as there is not enough energy to keep them going. As well as your body beginning to break down fat and muscle for energy... and this is what happens when you eat very little for a long time. Muscle is broken down for energy, the metabolism slows down and eventually the heart muscle wont get the energy it needs to keep pumping blood or it will begin to be used for energy. Though by that stage other organs have already shut down and caused problems or death.

The metabolism:

Metabolism is the process by which your body converts what you eat and drink into energy. During this complex biochemical process, calories in food and beverages are combined with oxygen to release the energy your body needs to function.
Even when you're at rest, your body needs energy for all its "hidden" functions, such as breathing, circulating blood, adjusting hormone levels, and growing and repairing cells.
The number of calories your body uses to carry out these basic functions is known as your basal metabolic rate — what you might call metabolism. Several factors determine your individual basal metabolic rate, including:
  • Your body size and composition. 
  • Your sex. 
  • Your age. 
  • Activity level
Energy needs for your body's basic functions stay fairly consistent and aren't easily changed. Your basal metabolic rate accounts for about 70 percent of the calories you burn every day.

The metabolism is what makes the food you eat turn into energy in your body and is also what regulates your weight. Your BMR is what your body burns just being alive and your TDEE is what your body needs to maintain including exercise and activity.
The amazing thing with your body is that 1) it is not a calculator so it can handle more energy and calories sometimes and 2) when you eat more, you should be able to notice it in your energy levels. I.e if you eat a whole bag of sweets you might notice you fidget more, are more restless and want to do something. That is your bodies way of releasing energy. Not in a mental compensation way, but in a..... you have energy, use it. This is your bodies way of balancing your weight and intake.

For example, when i ran my first 21km distance this year i had just eaten roughly 200g chocolate. I felt sooo restless and had so much energy and even if i am not the 'evening exerciser' i decided to go for a walk so that i would be able to sleep in the evening. But i just had so much energy so i began running and then 2 hours later i still wasnt that tired. And it was NOT compensation, it was excess energy. Whenever i eat 'more' whether it is from fruit, chocolate, nuts, casein, i always get this extra surge of energy. I notice it in my workouts but also just having more energy, wanting to do more things. And then the times i eat less i feel more tired, i feel heavy and demotivated. Workouts dont go as easy and if someone were to ask me to go for a walk i would decline right away. Its my bodies way of controlling my weight... letting me know when i need to eat more and when it has more energy than is needed.

Just like when i exercise more, which i usually do during summer. I mean you are out walking more, you do more and food is not as structured as when you are in school and have breakfast, lunch and snacks at a certain time. But i notice the difference... my body is telling me MORE food. Constant hunger because i am moving more and using more energy, which also means i need to CONSUME more energy. The body is very smart and gives you signals so that you can be the healthiest version of you. Because the body WANTS to be healthy. It will try to get you to your healthy set point and then keep you there, just like it will give you signals or pain when something is wrong in the body. Also an example, when you are sick and your body is fighting an infection or bacteria then you feel more tired and dont have alot of energy. That is your body telling you that right now you need to rest because doing lots of extra wont help you. So when you feel extra tired then listen to that signal and rest more because that is what your body needs. And if you are feeling extremely tired all the time, that can be a symptom of something and that is your bodies way of telling you that something is wrong. 

Know that your body is an amazing 'machine' and has all these processes in the body that are continuously working and the body wants to be healthy. It knows what it needs to be healthy. Such as with food cravings... you get them because there is something in the food that your body needs or if its emotional cravings, it is because you have a memory or something which is linked to the food which then makes you feel better. But real cravings are your bodies way of telling you that you need more of something, whether its just more energy or maybe a macronutrient, micronutrient or vitamin or mineral which your body needs more. 

With this post what i want to say is that your body knows how to function, unless you have some illness or condition which stops the body from working properly. (For example with my CF my body does not work properly and my body does not create the enzymes i need to digest food which is why i need to take digestive enzymes so that my body can actually absorb the energy and nutrients. As well as other parts of my body being affected by other things due to the illness) but still i am quite in tune with my body and what my body needs and wants. That is why i notice these differences such as when i exercise/move more i feel more hungry, or when i eat extra i get a surge of excess energy or when i eat too little and feel very tired. 
Begin to trust your body and know that it is smarter than you. Magazines and social media CAN'T tell you what your body needs or wants to function properly and to be healthy!! Only your body can tell you that (and a good (specialized) doctor as well as maybe blood tests!)


  1. I liked this post :) And I like it when you use scientific facts and language - it makes things more "real" imo :) <3

  2. This is so true-- people are not machines. The calories we need change everyday depending on our activities, stress, and period of life we are in. It isn't just about calories in and calories out, because our metabolisms can adapt to either extremes. I can definitely feel the additional hunger on days I am more active, but I can also feel the excess energy on days where I really nourish myself and eat a lot. It used to be a source of anxiety for me, but now I am totally in tune with my body and know that it will always be balanced in the end and that my body is always striving for an equilibrium.