Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.
I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.
I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: firstname.lastname@example.org
Sunday, June 21, 2015
Demotivated and lack of routines
I think the reason I am feeling the way I am feeling is due to lack of routines. Not really knowing what I am doing with my life... or I know what I want to do. But there is still so much uncertainty and so much waiting time. I love summer and having freedom but at the same time I am a person who needs structure and routine in my life. I don't feel good when my eating is all over the place, when I wake up at 6am one day at 10 am the next day. I don't feel good when I have nothing planned but at the same time having loads planned can really tire me out. So a balance between those two.
And when it comes to blogging it feels like recently blogging has become a must. Not something spontaneous and because I want to. I'm over thinking all my posts. ... wondering whether I should post personal posts or not. Does anyone even care about those? And it feels like all my help and advice posts are repeats. I've written about so many topics and it's just to search for something and you are likely to find it. Though of course I love getting comments and asks and try my best to answer all of them. But at the same time it feels like a 'must'.... I don't know what to write about. And sometimes I feel like writing about how I'm feeling, what's going through my head but I don't even know what that is.... I can't always put words to my thoughts and I am aware of who my readers are so don't have that freedom to post whatever I like anymore anyway.
I guess I just need to find routine in my own life. Make a plan and have some form of structure. And post when I feel like posting.... whether that's one post a dag or 6 posts a day. Find my enjoyment for blogging again, not put this pressure on myself to always post. Blogging is a full time thing, but it's not my job so I don't need to make it my job either. It's a fun hobby of mine as well as loving to help others but sometimes I need to put myself first and help myself before I try to help others.
However leave some suggestions, tips and comments to help me improve :)