Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Thursday, June 25, 2015

Awkward moment & my day

That awkward moment when you are replying to emails on your phone in the morning and then you get on the train holding your bag in one hand and a drink and your mobile in the other. Then when you sit down and look at your phone you realise you've sent a reply to an email and all it says is "help?".
   Hahah.  I could not stop laughing/smiling on the train.... I am so sorry to the person I sent this to :) but i sent an actual  reply after, but I don't want you to think I'm crazy :)

Even if slightly awkward, it got me smiling which was a good start to my day :)

Onto the rest of my day. ...  a short summary because otherwise chances are I'll write loads.

Along day where I had to run around the whole hospital to get to all the different areas.
An ultrasound of my heart which lead to them finding something weird there which caused me worry. But apparently there is nothing to worry about, but there is some slight form of deformation which leads to a slower blood flow into one of the veins/arteries but nothing to worry about,  or so they tell me.

Then some X rays and full body scans. Some tests to check my lungs and breathing capacity which was actually really hard and felt 'annoying' in my lungs. I also got to breathe in a medicine which made my heart beat super fast and made me light headed and for the next hour or so my hands were constantly shaking and I felt dizzy. Made it hard to eat lunch with shaking hands and light headedness. I've taken the medicine before so I know it's safe it's just a very strong medicine.

And finally it was 3pm and my last test for the day, and my annual check up. A cardiovascular test which checks oxygen levels and other things. Last year I cycled up to 205 watts before it became too much and this year 234 watts. ... so hopefully next year 250 watts or more :) feels good to see progress there :)

Then at 4pm when I was done my mum picked me up and offered to drive to Ikea as she wanted to buy me a 'present' and she knows that I take food pictures so she said maybe she could buy me some cute bowls/cups /glasses etc
  So even if I felt tired I had a snack with me so that gave me energy and then we wandered around Ikea for a while and bought a few cute things. Which I guess you'll see in the upcoming days :)

And now I'm sitting in the car stuck in traffic and longing to come home and sleep/be done for the day :) :)


  1. Hi!

    I wanted to ask that you need to eat a loat because of your CF, or not?

    1. I don't eat alot,I eat what my body needs based on different factors :)

    2. Sorry:)
      I wanted to ask: Do you need to eat more because of your CF?

    3. Well that is one factor.

  2. Your "help?" story just made me laugh out loud too ;))

  3. I read your blog every night when I eat my desserts! You are such an inspiration to me! I looove your blog xx

  4. Can you talk about how you met him on tinder?

    1. I've written a post about this :) I can put the link in a reply in a little while :)

  5. I hope everything is alright with your health Izzy, and that you don't have to wait too much in traffic ;).

  6. How do you feel about refugees in Sweden? I have always loved Sweden and i´d really like to move here some day, but as sweden has been welcoming so many refugees i dont know anymore :( I like Nordic countries and Nordic people, but i feel like scandinavian culture is fading away and islam is taking over..

    1. I prefer to not write about religion on here. But Sweden is still Sweden, though there is a problem with beggars and organised begging, but Sweden is a country that does accept refugees and immigrants.

  7. That's so nice that your mum bought you presents in Ikea after a tough day in the hospital! I hope you feel less tired soon! xx

  8. Aw, your mum is the cutest! My mum is juuuuust getting used to the idea of me blogging hahaha she thinks it is the best thing! Cute how parents can get behind our "weird" (because I mean, spilling our guts on the internet is kinda weird) hobbies.

    1. hahah, my mum has started her own blog and IG as well... it feels so weird, but she is doing it for her businness so it's not really the same thing XD