Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Saturday, June 27, 2015


What does your boyfriend say about you taking pictures of food? 
He knows i blog so he doesnt question it :) But i try to not take too many food photos when i am with him... just like i try to not do too much blogging when i am with him. Instead i schedule posts and such :)

Do you eat the same thing as him? How do you decide what to eat?
How we decide.... haha we just sort of eat 'the usual' which is chicken or salmon and then we add things like potatoes/potatoe wedges/avocado/cottage cheese/salad etc or do things like burgers, tacos, home made pizza etc
Yes we eat the same thing, though he eats red meat so i've told him that its fine if he wants to eat that sometime and then ill make chicken/fish/quorn & whatever else we're eating. Though of course there are some differences in the way we eat, but we both compromise and it's no big deal :)

How long do self harm scars last? How long until they fade, will they all leave scars?
It depends on what type of self harm it is and how 'bad' it is.... but generally scars can last 2-4 weeks or more. There are creams and 'bio oil' is supposed to help with self harm scars. Some scars don't fade at all, or it takes years for them to fade. So the best thing is to stop and not make any more self harm scars. You can find some of my posts about self harm HERE

do you sometimes wish your anorexia had never been there or can you accept it as a part of your life? 

At the time i was sick i would have done anything to not struggle and not have to go through what i was going through. But now afterwards i can say that what i went through made me who i am today. I would be a completely different person if i hadnt struggled and gone through what i did. I believe that i would still have been the weak, self conscious girl with low self esteem and perfectionism. But also i dont know if i would live in Sweden if i hadnt become sick. I wouldnt have met my friends, i wouldnt have met my boyfriend.... there are so many things i wouldnt have done, so many memories which i wouldnt have. Though that doesnt mean my life wouldnt be good, i mean if you dont know better then it of course seems good. But i wouldnt want to change what i have been through, because i know i can use my past experience and continue to help people which is what i love!!

I can accept my past, learn from my mistakes, move on and hopefully not make the same mistakes again. But also to help others not make the same mistakes i did. It is a part of me and a part of my past and i am ok with that :)

For a long time i carried alot of guilt about my past, about how i had treated the people around me, how i had treated myself as well as how many years i had lost. But now i no longer feel guilt over that, but can instead accept it and move on, which i believe is an important part of recovery as well. To one accept that you are/were sick, but that you are moving towards a healthier you/you are healthy now and your eating disorder is in the past.


  1. Just wanted to comment on the self-harm scars. I have a lot of them on my wrists from cutting and it does depend on how deep the skin was injured, but it's very likely it will scar unless you only scratched yourself or scraped a layer of skin. It takes a year for any scar to reach its final maturity. So after one year, the scar you have is the scar you'll have for the rest of your life. Mine took about 4-5 months to fade from being red/purple to lighter and closer to scar tissue. What is the best option for helping scars fade is silicone sheeting. It's these little strips of silicone you can buy from a drugstore that you just stick on like a bandage. Massaging them will help as it increases bloodflow and encourages healing. Sorry for the long comment... But eventually the scars fade to a light shade that is barely visible. ♡

  2. What was the name of the series that one of ur school teachers i think bur psychology suggested andbu started watching?:)

    1. My English teacher recommended the series "the jinx" about Robert durst. It's a real life documentary ;) not sure if you mean another one?

  3. Another question. In your note at the top of your webpage it says you suffered from depression as well for 5 years. Do you consider that depression to be more an effect of the anorexia or were you officially diagnosed as having the mental disorder depression? Because starvation will cause depression and as heard in a documentary, thats often why they don't treat anorexics with antidepressants because once their brain finally gets those much needed nutrients the depression goes away. So they don't actually have depression because of their genetics and the official diagnosis of depression.

    1. I was diagnosed with depression as well, though I think it developed from the starvation. My doctors wanted me to take anti depressants but my mum was against it and instead I used 'natural' remedies. I've written about it before but since my recovery I have had tomes when I have fallen back into depression again as well as depression running in my family.

  4. Thank you!! I asked the last question some days ago and I am really thankful you found time to answer it :) I think its good that you can see anorexia as a part of your life and love a healthy life now. Be proud of you!! Enjoy running! ♡

    1. Thank you so much! I hope you are doing well :)