The thing which i love about blogging is that i take alot of pictures and that means alot of memories are kept and not forgotten. Both good and bad memories!
There has been sooo much stress in this school, so many times i have cried, wanted to give up, stop school. Times i have wanted to scream, shout and refuse to go to school. Just give up on life because it felt too tough, too many things i had to do at once. Too many deadlines, tests and things to remember. But there have been good times.... times i have laughed so much with my friends that i have been brought to tears. Internal jokes and memories never forgotten. Parties, jokes and dinners with friends. There have been ups and downs.
High school was the place i really tried to find myself. I had just been declared healthy from Mando, i had just reached a healthy weight and moved apartment and was ready to begin living my life, the first time since 2009 or something. I was ready to show everyone that i was healthy and ready to live the life that i had dreamt of for so long.... though things didnt turn out as planned in the beginning, it took a few years. Its only now - 3 years later that i can say that i am living the life i had dreamt of back in 2010 and 2011!! haha.
To begin with i found it very tough in the school and couldnt make any friends and had begun thinking about doing a distance school instead or going to another school. But then i found my group of friends and felt i belonged... even if times i felt like i could disappear and no one would notice. I fell into a depression again at the end of 2012 due to stress and lonliness but fought my way through that. These 3 years have been awesome and i have learnt alot as well as grown tremendously as a person. In 2013 i found one of my biggest passions in life which is strength training and making my physical match my mental strength. Ive gone through things which have been tough and have changed me and impacted me both negatively and positively, but all the time you learn and you grow. Ive made mistakes, ive done many stupid things, ive kept myself from doing things and saying things ive wanted to. Ive stepped outside of my comfort zones and ive stayed in my comfort zone.
2014 was the year of growth in many different areas of life and 2015 was the year where i have done alot of things i never thought i would do. Alot of things have changed and been very positive in these past 6 months which have been amazing and i hope the year continues in this great way!!
I am so happy that i choose to go to the school i went to and that i got to know the friends i did! I truly hope that i will stay in contact with them - i am going to try my best so hopefully they will also try even if some are travelling, i hope we will still be a circle of friends!!