Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email: lifewithoutanorexia@hotmail.com

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Monday, June 8, 2015

3 years of memories

What better time to look back at these past 3 years than on the day of my graduation!
  The thing which i love about blogging is that i take alot of pictures and that means alot of memories are kept and not forgotten. Both good and bad memories!

There has been sooo much stress in this school, so many times i have cried, wanted to give up, stop school. Times i have wanted to scream, shout and refuse to go to school. Just give up on life because it felt too tough, too many things i had to do at once. Too many deadlines, tests and things to remember. But there have been good times.... times i have laughed so much with my friends that i have been brought to tears. Internal jokes and memories never forgotten. Parties, jokes and dinners with friends. There have been ups and downs.

High school was the place i really tried to find myself. I had just been declared healthy from Mando, i had just reached a healthy weight and moved apartment and was ready to begin living my life, the first time since 2009 or something. I was ready to show everyone that i was healthy and ready to live the life that i had dreamt of for so long.... though things didnt turn out as planned in the beginning, it took a few years. Its only now - 3 years later that i can say that i am living the life i had dreamt of back in 2010 and 2011!! haha.

To begin with i found it very tough in the school and couldnt make any friends and had begun thinking about doing a distance school instead or going to another school. But then i found my group of friends and felt i belonged... even if times i felt like i could disappear and no one would notice. I fell into a depression again at the end of 2012 due to stress and lonliness but fought my way through that. These 3 years have been awesome and i have learnt alot as well as grown tremendously as a person. In 2013 i found one of my biggest passions in life which is strength training and making my physical match my mental strength. Ive gone through things which have been tough and have changed me and impacted me both negatively and positively, but all the time you learn and you grow. Ive made mistakes, ive done many stupid things, ive kept myself from doing things and saying things ive wanted to. Ive stepped outside of my comfort zones and ive stayed in my comfort zone.
  2014 was the year of growth in many different areas of life and 2015 was the year where i have done alot of things i never thought i would do. Alot of things have changed and been very positive in these past 6 months which have been amazing and i hope the year continues in this great way!!

I am so happy that i choose to go to the school i went to and that i got to know the friends i did! I truly hope that i will stay in contact with them - i am going to try my best so hopefully they will also try even if some are travelling, i hope we will still be a circle of friends!!

First year:










2nd Year












3rd year!!!














The past 3 years ive grown and changed and built a healthy life!
Ive made many mistakes, done things i regret, experienced awful things but along the way i have grown and changed and i can say i love my life how it is now and i love myself for who i am!

Its exciting to see what this next chapter of my life will include!!!





7 comments:

  1. Congratulations Izzy! It's amazing to see how far you e come, and how happy you are now!! P.S. You look so pretty in all your graduation photos! Xxx

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  2. You must be so proud of yourself Izzy!!congratulations on everything you've ever accomplished!! (And it's a lot!;) ) I only wish I can be like yoy. But I can never see myself like that. So strong and confident. Eating even if no one else wants to. Can I ask you something? How do yoy do that? I don't eat unless others eat or get scared of eating something different because I think they have diff calorie numbers and mine may be higher...and I also don't see the point of gaining weight. I mean I'm not that under weight (10lbs) so why can't I just stay the wag I am? I eat all the time so I'm getting the nutrients and my body is functioning normally. There are tons of people who are naturally underweight and they're ok. Why can't j just stay like this then?
    I'm sorry for these intense questions on your graduation but I've been feeling so lost...congratulations though on everything!! You deserve it!! You've been such a huge inspiration to me! AND yoy look GORGEOUS!!!! <<<333

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  3. You look amazing! You probably get this a lot, but you were my motivation to truly start the long road to recovery. Anyway, next month I'll be going on holiday to Thailand for a month (spoiled much ^^) to which I'm looking forward a lot and it's a great motivation for me to stay on the right track. However, I'm also very anxious about it. The food there is unfamiliar and I won't know how it's cooked. I won't know the calories, and sticking to my meal plan is going to be impossible since the food there is very different. I do know that noodles and rice are eaten for both breakfast and dinner -> high in carbs and calories :/ I don't want my ED to ruin the holiday, something I'm very scared of. Do you have any tips?

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  4. Wow the brown hair looks so pretty and much more natural on you. You should go back to this :) Is your natural color a darker shade?

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    1. Haha no I am naturally white blonde! But I've dyed my hair since the age of 12 so my natural hair colour is slightly darker now ;).but I much prefer blonde! !

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  5. You should be so proud of yourself looking back on how far you have come in the last three years and how much you have changed. You are such an inspiration to me and I wish I could strive to be half as good as you have become. You really are incredible, I can't tell you how incredible you are because there are no words! Was it going to Mando that helped you change the most or did you get a moment where something 'clicked' in your mind to get better? I'm really struggling at the moment, but I love that I can look up to you for inspiration! Thank you so much xxx

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