Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email:


Sunday, May 3, 2015

What it's like to be recovered from an eating disorder

Signs that you have recovered from your eating disorder

When I struggled with my ED I had no clue what it’s like to be recovered so here is a list for everyone who wonders too:
  • you don’t weigh yourself everyday
  • you don’t write down your daily weight
  • seeing skinny girls on tumblr doesn’t affect you
  • you forget how many calories a specific food contains
  • you don’t count calories
  • you don’t constantly grab your fat
  • you accept the fact that every body holds and needs a certain amount of fat
  • you don’t need minutes/hours/days to decide if you’re going to eat that cookie or not
  • you can go out for dinner and not freak out about it
  • you enjoy eating food
  • you don’t immediately have the urge to work out / throw up after eating “too much”
  • you don’t care if you ate too much that day
  • you cannot tell what you ate 3 days ago
  • you do exercise for fun and to keep your body healthy and fit, not in order to destroy it or make up for sth you ate
  • you don’t go to bed hungry
  • you don’t think about the food you ate while you’re trying to fall asleep
  • and when you do think about the food you ate it’s because the food was super awesome and delicious and you want to eat it again
  • you are ok with having an average BMI 
  • you look into the mirror and see things you like
  • you don’t even think about skipping meals
  • your thoughts don’t constantly circle around food, calories and weight
  • you can eat a piece of chocolate without eating 2358723 bars of chocolate
  • you eat when you’re hungry and you stop when you’re full
  • you don’t care if you ate more or less than anyone else at the table
  • there’s no voice telling you you’re ugly or unworthy
  • you don’t want to be sick
  • you don’t think you’re too fat for an eating disorder
  • you know you’re  great and deserve to be happy and healthy
  • gaining weight doesn’t seem to be the worst thing that could ever happen to you
  • you don’t compare yourself with everyone else in the room
  • you can go to the beach without freaking out
  • you regularly get your period (if you are a girl of course)
  • you know that starving won’t make you special / better than those who eat
  • you can say: “I’m hungry” and not feel guilty/ ashamed about it
  • being happy makes you happy

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  1. you can say: “I’m hungry” and not feel guilty/ ashamed about it

    THIS!! Even when I'm decleared healthy and don't have any eating disordered thoughts, this appeals to me! I hope you could maybe write a post about it soon? :)
    I don't mean that I feel guilty for being hungry or anything, but saying that I'm hungry.. I eat when I'm hungry, so that's not it - It's just that I "can't" admit the words "I am hungry". Okay, maybe this will be a bit hard for you to write about when I can't even explain it for you to understand, hahaha!
    Like, when my friends and I are going out for dinner, they're all like "OMG, I am so hungry I could eat a horse!" and "I am really hungry now" etc. I just can't say that. I am hungry like them, I eat enough, I have no obsessing thoughts, I just can't -say- aloud that I am feeling hungry. Strange thing. It just feels too wierd. It's not bothering me that much, but I find it so odd...

    1. Ive answered this in a post coming tomorrow :)

    2. Thank you! I can't wait! :)