Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email: lifewithoutanorexia@hotmail.com

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Wednesday, May 27, 2015

The 'class strength'

Yesterday i was nominated as the 'class strength'. I had suspected something like that but the motivation behind the nomination was super sweet!
   Basically everyone in the class was given a name of a person in the class (a friend of them) and then they have to write a sort of rhyme which is the reason why the person was nominated as the certain 'class X'.

This was the motivation given for me: (It rhymes in Swedish, and not so much english, haha)
Izzy, om alla ändå vore mer som du Vore framtiden ändå bra ljus Styrkan du besitter är enorm I både mental och fysisk form Allt från yoga till Matte fixar du galant På ett sätt som är charmant Du övervinner alla hinder Din pojkvän träffade du på tinder Du är någon vi alla dyrkar Därför är du klassens styrka


English:
Izzy, if more people were like you
the future would be very bright
The strength you posess is huge,
Both mental and physical form
Everything from yoga to maths you do perfectly
in a way that is charming
you over come all obstacles
Your boyfriend you met on tinder
You are someone we all adore
thats why you are the class strength



Its nice that others around me see both my mental and physical strength and see it as something positive. Because there is alot of stigma (still) around girls who strength train and have muscle. But i do it because i love it and love feeling strong, after so many years (up until i was 16) i was always super weak. I could barely open a door, i could run and had conditioning but i had no strength or upper body strength. So now i love it.. but also the mental strength i possess. Its a part of me and makes me who i am and i really dont know who or where i would be without my strength!!


Onto something else.... I mentioned a year or two ago (maybe) that a girl in my class had found my blog as she was struggling with an eating disorder. And she did personally ask me for some help which i then tried giving my best advice and over the time period i have seen as the girl has gotten healthier and happier. More confident and she radiates happiness now which has always made me so happy, to see how she has changed and also changed her life around as she was really struggling and i saw that in her. She has thanked me once before for my blog and told me that it has really helped her, but last night she came up to me and really thanked me. Told me it had saved her life, helped her recover!! I was shocked, didnt really know what to say but it made me so happy as well, to hear it personally!!! But the thing that made me happiest is that i have seen the change in her, and i can see how much happier she is now and looking so much better! I dont know if she still reads my blog (im guessing not, but if she does then hopefully she will read this! :)). But it also made me realise that helping people is what i want to do... i dont know if i will work with people with eating disorders in the future because it is very time consuming and craves alot of patience. Because when you are sick, its not easy to trust the word of others. You think people are lying to you ... but the best thing you can do is try it yourself. If someone tells you something, then try it..... its not enough for me to tell you to increase your calories or that you need to stop purging or that resting wont make you fat... but you have to experience itself. And that takes alot of courage and strength, just to try once... but then to keep trying. It craves alot of patience to help people who are very deep into their eating disorder - because it isnt easy to recover. But i know that i want to help people... i want to be able to see the change in people, see how they become happier and healthier. Make changes in their life so that they are happy and healthy!! THAT is what makes me happy!!!


ALSO... hearing about YOUR recovery progresses makes me happy. To hear when things are going good. It always makes me smile when i hear people making progress in their recovery or when i stumble upon blogs or IG's where people are truly recovering and you can see the difference in them, read and notice the change in attitude and thoghts. It makes me so happy!!!!

Anyway, that was a slight difference in topic but i was thinking about it and thought i would write about it!!


1 comment:

  1. Hi Izzy! I have to say, after being in recovery for nearly a year, including with IOP, therapists, dieticians, a LOT of hard work and struggle, and still struggling quite a lot but going forward, and having also emailed you a couple of times, your blog has been infinitely infinitely helpful and motivating and encouraging, especially in times when I have lost hope, when I wasn't able to see therapists, when I was spiraling, or when I was still going but really having trouble. I am sure many others feel the same, that you have truly been such a huge part of my recovery, such a help and such an inspiration. So many questions I have been unsure of, or things I have been afraid of, have all been written about on your blog and I am so grateful for you and your blog. Congratulations on graduating and all of the exciting new things in your life!!! You deserve all of them :) Lots of love! Katherine

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