Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
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Thursday, May 7, 2015

School, shopping, chocolate, baking

To start off, this day has been a day with little energy. I felt it this morning (Thats why i havent really blogged until now!) and when my mind kept wandering to brownies or chocolate, thats when i knew both my body and mind were tired. Whenever i get too many thoughts about food i know that its when my body is tired... its like my body reminding my mind to eat more, that right now its tired and needs more energy!

After lunch, when i made sure to eat double portion (i usually dont mention my school lunch but today it was sooo good!! Fish baked in some type of herb batter & cottage cheese with sun dried tomatoes & baked vegetables, potatoe and sweet potatoe. It was SUCH a good lunch, i was surprised because recently the school lunches have been terrible!). After lunch when i had filled up with energy again, then i got my mental energy back and worked hard, feeling productive! Love these types of days when things just sort of flow - though not blogging. Dont really know what to write about :(

As i finished at 2pm today my mum picked me up and we headed to a shopping centrum where we began our search for my graduation dress and another party dress which i need. I must say i really hate shopping, its even tougher than running a half marathon.... i prefer online shopping, but i tried that and it didnt work. I need to try the clothes on first to see if they fit. As i am super bloated today and having a bad body image day, it felt like none of the dresses fit me, i just felt a bit like a whale... but eventually i found a dress which i really like!!

A little sneak peek below, but you will see the dress on me in a few weeks time!!

Then we took a pause in the shopping to get fro-yo (Guess which one i ate??!! XD) before we began looking in shops again. Just as we were leaving and giving up hope i looked into a shop and saw this little black dress (turned out to be a maxi dress) which i loved and once i tried it on... i knew it was the right one!! So now all i need is the shoes and extras, but i atleast have the clothes!!!

Then home again where i decided to bake for my friends tomorrow as well as for A!! The baking choice today was delicious cookie and cream cookies & blondies with white chocolate in them! Both taste AMAZING! (recipes will be up later or tomorrow!)

Now time for some type of green food and some resting time!!! :)

How has YOUR day been? :)


  1. I had the fuzziest day - it was my first school play (though it was not just a school play!) and I re-took one test right after that. The adrenaline bursted inside that afternoon so that I probably got stretch marks! Both were good, thank god. I also had an evening run but it wasn't that special.

    Everything you do always sounds so funky! I guess I'm just too fond on jumping home that I can't even imagine how would it be like elsewhere.

    1. Sounds like a very special day!! I hope your test went well :)
      Well 95% of the time my life is really boring and i dont do so much - just come home and study or watch a film/series. It always feels like other peoples live are great and awesome compared you your own!!

  2. Oh my goodness you HAVE to post the blondie recipe!!!!!!!!!

  3. I know that a lot of people consider veganism disordered eating but have you ever considered it for ethical reasons. Have you watched the documentary Earthlings before? I waited until I was fully recovered before I went vegan xx

    1. Yes of course i have considered going vegan for ethical reasons, but i do like dairy and such and also i dont think i could eat the energy amount i need if i turned vegan. So instead i try to make the best choices i can make with food i.e choosing organic, not eating so much meat etc

  4. What was in your fro-yo?! It looks amazing! Xxx

    1. Lots of different chocolate pieces :):)