Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Thursday, May 21, 2015

Random facts about me

Whenever i find out that i miss a race i feel upset... and whenever i see posts about people getting ready and training for the race i feel even more upset. Even if the race isnt in Stockholm and it would be hard for me to actual get to the race course i always wish i could work magic so that i could be there at the start of the race and run!! - On Saturday its 'Göteborgsvarvet' a half marathon in Gothenburg and i see so many posts about people getting ready for it and i really wish i could run it as well!!! It looks like a beautiful course and well... i want to run another half marathon! XD

^^ hahahah i answered yes to almost all of these!!! XD

^^Couldnt describe it better!

Whenever i make food or drinks i am determined to bring it all up to my room/kitchen table at once. Its happened where i have carried 3 different glasses filled with liquids, 2 plates with food and a bowl filled with something and managed to not drop something. Most people would be like, ok... ill take what i can manage and then go down and get the rest. Me.... I NEED to bring it all up at once, haha..

I pretty much never answer FB messages. People who are friends with me on there will know that by now.... Im not ignoring you. Im not being rude. It's just that i dont always have time to reply when i get the message and then if the notification disappears i will forget to check my messages. And then after its gone like 5 or 6 days and i havent replied i feel this huge embarrassment that i have forgotten to reply so instead prefer to not reply. :(  I am weird and yes, i know i am that awful friend who never replies. hahaha. Sometimes i wonder how i even manage to have contact with people... but luckily those who are closest to me i meet on a regular basis so if i dont reply to a message its not the end of the world!

I started my Facebook while i was on holiday in Rome... hahah. Sitting in the hotel/hostel and using their computer (you know those really old ones which take forever and a day to work?!) and then i created my Facebook!

I hate buying myself stuff... i am surprised that i have actually bought myself a graduation dress and shoes and havent just decided to use something 'old'. It's not that i am 'greedy' i mean i spend lots of money on food and stuff, but i always have this long thought process before i buy anything where it's like.... "I really need a new top as all the ones i have are 2 or 3 years old." "No, but i dont need a new one, i have old ones" "But they barely fit anymore..." "I should buy them, who cares what the other part of my brain says"...."No actually i dont need a new top. I have old ones and they are fine"..... and this thought process happens with everything even if its a necessity and so it goes weeks or months before i eventually just have to buy the item because i am in actual need of it!! XD I usually feel a little guilty, as if i dont deserve it... i always feel awkward when people buy me gifts or things as well as i dont really know how to react and feel a little guilty.
  I dont know if this is a good thing or not, but my mum and sister tells me its not a good characteristic as it means that it takes me forever to buy things i need and can never really treat myself to something new 'just because'....


  1. Hey Izzy!
    Hope you have had a good thursday?
    Maybe one day you can be one of those people who travel to different cities all over the world to run marathons :)
    I´m like you when it comes to clothes and shopping XD I just buy food. I own just one pair of blue jeans and they are over 3 years old. Luckily I bought them too big then because they fit me now when I´m a lot heavier (recovering from anorexia) Maybe it would be time to buy some new ones :D

    Have a great week!

  2. Could you do a post about how to save money?

  3. I want to get well enough to race again, I totally understand what you mean when you say you feel upset that you're not doing a race! One day I hope to recover and run again. I used to run 9 miles a day as well as 1.5 hours walking and dance exercise DVDs but it was too much on too little food and it made me really sick. Do you find it hard to strike a balance between eating and exercise? I admire you for doing what you do! X

  4. God I'm exactly the same with buying new clothes & stuff! I never get that 'buzz' some people get when they walk out with bag fulls of new clothes, it would send me into a spin! I swear all I spend money on is groceries, food, and snacks..hold on..they're all the same thing ;)