Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.
I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.
I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: email@example.com
Monday, May 11, 2015
Live, Don't just survive
Ask yourself.... are you living or just surviving? Because there is a very big different between the two.
Living and life is when you are free, when you are happy, there maybe certain rules you have to abide by or schedules to follow, but inbetween those things you live life and are happy most of the time. You create a life you love, you make mistakes but you learn from them. Life has its ups and downs and you love the ups and enjoy the good times, even if the bad times may be tough. You keep moving forward, creating a future. Your only limitations are the feasible ones such as money, time, obligations.
Surviving... thats when you spend your life wondering when it will all be over? Whether you should just hurry up the process so that you dont have to live another day... however you might have a slight hope that things will get better, but 99.9% of the time you just survive. Follow routines and habits, feeling lifeless and unhappy. Somedays you might smile, find something fun and enjoyable, find something that sparks your motivation to want to keep feeling that same way... the endorphines and happiness of truly living. But you end up back in your old routines, never breaking free. Feeling like there is a raincloud above your head - you look at other people and wonder why they can be so free and happy and why you can't? But you can be free. You can live life. But then you have to start living life, trying to smile, do fun things, break your habits and control issues. Learn to let go... learn to fight the anxiety that might arise when you do things differently. But that anxiety will fade and suddenly you will look back at this period of your life and wonder... what the hell you were doing with your life and how did you manage to just 'survive' that long? Whereas others.... they never find the courage, motivation or strength to make a change and never fully experience what its like to live life... and I am not talking live life in the sense of YOLO - lets travel the world when we only have 50 dollars, or lets go climb Mount Everest. I mean live life like... take spontaneous roadt rips, not worry about what time it is, sight see and explore somewhere new.... not always having to have control or watch the clock or have everything go perfect. At times this can be good, to be punctual and to have routines... but you have to be able to just let go..... to not have something (irrational) hold you back from doing what you want!