Spent a little too much time in my own head with my own thoughts. Suddenly feeling like im 'stuck'... thinking about my life, my future. What do i want to do? I know what i want to do... but do i really? Sometimes thinking about studying for the next 5-6 years and working some boring job... it just doesnt feel like a life worth living? Is that all there is.... Of course i know these are silly thoughts. Because there is so much more to life than studying and working, its the small things. Like pancakes for breakfast, evening walks, laughing with friends... doing things you enjoy and noticing the small positive things in life. Thats life, making memories!! Work and education are there to make life better, not worse.
Anyway, i guess i feel like i want change... and its coming soon. Once i graduate my life will change... and i want it, but at the same time it scares me. But i want to start working... i want things to be different, i want to have a goal in my life because right now i feel like i dont have any goals... not even in my training. I have small races to run, but they are nothing big just 5 or 10km races and that isnt that big of a deal to me. Even if i am excited for all of them and can't wait... i guess i want a challenge? Something new..... I want something new and different in life.
I guess i need to just be patient because things will change. But also to sit down and write down my goals in life... what is it i want to do? What do i want to achieve? What are my goals? What are things i want to happen.... i believe in the power of thoughts and knowing what you want in life. If you know what you want, things will eventually happen even if they dont turn out like you had thought they would.
Just some random thoughts in my head.... at the moment i feel like curling into a ball. Its been a tough week so i guess its ok to feel like this - but tomorrow is a new day and will hopefully be better than today because today has been a pretty 'blahhhh' day. :(