Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email:


Thursday, May 14, 2015

A day of "Have to's "

After 13,5 hours away from home i finally came home and wasn't feeling that tired... instead i felt super duper hungry! A long tough day in school which started with my science presentation, then my last bit of assessment for my individual project, followed by a philosophy quiz. Then at 12pm all my friends had finished school for the day so instead i sat in the library for the next 3 hours until it was time for my french national test.  All the time that i sat in the library my head was just saying i don't want to. I want to go home. It felt slightly unfair that all my friends ended 4 hours before me... but that's life, at least i can say i got quite a bit done in those 3 hours, even if my motivation wasn't on top! I can feel the work pile decreasing :)

When the clock stroke 4pm and my test was over i handed it in with a sigh of relief as well as knowing that there is a 90% chance i failed it, but now it's over with. No need to think about it, i did the best i could and if it's not good enough.... well there is worse things in life!

Then i headed out to a friends house (45 minutes travelling) where we filmed our project for 90 minutes before then having a 60 minute journey home again! The best thing about yesterday? I can now tick 5 things off my school work pile!!  That feeling, its pretty amazing :)

^^Two of my meals yesterday!! I got such a craving for cheese so made myself some cheese sandwiches (would have been best with bread XD)... and it made me a little nostalgic! Though it reminded me that i really amnt a fan of cheese... but you got to listen to your cravings! And even if i wasnt sure if i liked it not, it was like a flashback of childhood! :)

Today i have no school (yipppe!) so instead i am going to work through a pile of 'have to's' which include cleaning my room, maths studying, booking a time to cut my hair, buy a few things for graduation, bills, pick up packages etc etc the list goes on!!! Also, i will try to make a vlog as soon as i can and answer your questions within the next few days :)

Have a lovely day everyone!!! Soon its the weekend :)


  1. I like it when you say 'thats life' . It helps me when I'm feeling down or when something bad happens <3

  2. This feeling when you finally pass your final exams, it doesn't strike you all of the sudden but without realising it, it takes away a weight from your shoulders. Personally it took me almost a full month to take it all in, but you'll feel the difference, like physically. And I'm sure you're underestimating yourself, félicitations pour votre examen ;) xoxo -Carine.

    1. Ohh yes!! I can't wait until I have that feeling :) :)

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