Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.
I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.
I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: email@example.com
Saturday, May 9, 2015
75 years - garden party
Today was my step dads mums (so my sort of grandmother!) 75th birthday and she had invited family and friends to her place for a late lunch and celebrations.
After finishing an essay and doing some maths studying my boyfriend drove us to their place (roughly an hours drive) where we met everyone, ate some of the snacks and drank some drinks (non alcoholic) before the lunch was served which was a mix of everything!
After a while of laying in the sun it was time for cake and coffee!
After a little more time passed we decided to head back home, both feeling full and not so social anymore!! As ive written before, i can find it a little draining to spend lots of time with other people and my boyfriend understands that, and can be the same sometimes. So it's nice when he understands that I just want to sit in silence!!
Otherwise... i have alot of things on my mind. Not feeling so mentally strong at the moment, so many thoughts in my head which i am trying to fight off. Dont even know where they came from, but all these negative thoughts in my mind and at the same time i am trying to smile and act my usual self, but not easy when i feel like i am fighting a battle in my head. But hopefully they will pass....
I hope so anyway, its not a nice feeling when i have all these thoughts in my head bringing down my energy and making me feel anti social and different.
Anyway, that was not what i had planned to write in this post... but i want to be honest on my blog and write about how i feel. And at the moment its alot of thoughts... but i am going to stay strong and fight off the thoughts and hopefully wake up and feel better tomorrow!