Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
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Thursday, April 16, 2015

Tips to stop purging

Purging was something i struggled with for several years and had some bad periods where i could purge anywhere from 6-12 times per day and other times it could go 2 whole weeks without purging. Purging was never something i found difficult to do or even something disgusting which then made it harder for me to stop the habit. It even went so far that i have purged at friends houses, public bathrooms, in bushes, forests and buckets in my room. Anything to get rid of the guilt and get rid of the food inside of me.
  There are many health consequences from purging which you can read HERE but i never acknowledged them i didnt think they were true or wouldnt happen to me, but of course i do now face consequences from my years of purging such as getting extreme heart burn very frequently as well as it taking a very long time for food to not come back up on its own - as my body was so used to bringing food back up again so that it would naturally happen.

I thought i would write some tips - from my own personal experience - on how to stop purging.

The first thing: DONT give yourself the opportunity to purge.
If you know that after you eat you will run to the bathroom or run somewhere and purge then DONT. Dont sit alone or run off, instead plan to meet a friend or go for a walk or study or work. Keep yourself preoccupied and busy. Let the feelings past and let your food digest. But the important thing is to keep yourself away from somewhere where you can purge. It is extremely difficult in the beginning and the anxiety, guilt and thoughts begin to tear you apart but it will get easier. You just need to fight against those feelings and thoughts because they WILL pass and you are doing a good thing by not purging.

Wait 1-2 hours before going to the bathroom after a meal
For me when i was recovering even if i had choosen to not purge and was mentally trying to fight off the voice in my head if i went to the bathroom even to wash my hands it was like my ED took over and suddenly i would be purging even if i had tried not to. It was just because i could... so keep yourself away from temptation and avoid going to the bathroom or putting yourself in a situation where you 'could' purge. Its better to be as far away from a place you can purge after a meal as you can!

Read about the consequences of purging.
You can read HERE
If you find out the future consequences and what purging does to your body (as well as the fact that when you purge you only really get rid of 50% of the contents, you cant purge everything... so you may feel empty, but you are still absorbing energy - this is mainly important to think about if you are someone who both binges and purges.)

Talk to someone and get support.
If someone knows what you are doing they can keep an eye on you and keep you from purging. I have argued with my mum countless times because i was going to the bathroom to purge after a meal but she would stand in the way and not let me in. I despised her at the time but she was trying to help me and was doing her best. So confide in someone close to you, it is the first step towards recovery. But also it can make you realise what you are doing is wrong and by having someone there to help you through the tough times and keep you from purging then it can be easier to stop.

Stop 'cold turkey' (I.e all at once)
Some things it is better to slowly cut down and decrease but when it comes to purging you need to stop all together. Not just purge 3 times a day instead of 6 or purge atleast once a day/week. It is something you need to stop all at once, that you decide to not purge and then there is no... 'i can purge after dinner or, it's ok if i purge now because i havent purged earlier'. You need to keep yourself away from situations where you can purge and to find ways to cope with the anxiety and guilt. Because those feelings will pass but if you still purge sometimes, then it is much harder to get rid of the habit and problem.

Make a list of goals and rewards for going purge free
Set up small rewards or goals after going say 1 week without purging, then by going a whole month without purging and 3 months without purging. Do or buy something nice which will motivate and encourage you to keep going and your eventual goal.... lose track of the days you go without purging.

Decide to stop purging.
You need to 100% decide to stop. For your own health and because it is a pretty nasty habit. If you are only on the edges of recovery that isnt good enough and the temptation to purge will definitely become too much. So instead you need to know and decide that you want to stop and try your hardest to do that. Even if you slip up, you will know that you want to get rid of the habit and change and the slip up will just motvate you even more to get rid of the habit!

These are just some of the things i found helpful when i was trying to get rid of my purging habits - if you have any that help YOU then comment below :)

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