Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email: lifewithoutanorexia@hotmail.com

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Tuesday, April 7, 2015

Relationship thoughts

One of the hardest things for me personally being in a relationship is realising, believing and accepting that someone actually likes me. There is a quote that goes "No one is going to love you if you dont love yourself". And if I am honest, i hate that quote alot... There will always be someone out there who will love you even if you are struggling to love yourself, you just need to find the right person. However you can't expect someone else to fix you or that you will magically begin to love yourself because someone else is ther eby your side, though it can help.
  Sorry, that was a sidetrack. But the thing is i do like myself, but for some reason i can't quite fathom that someone else would ever like me? Even if A tells me he likes me, enjoys spending time with me and I make him happy (and the same goes for him, i.e he makes me happy and i enjoy spending time with him) but i cant seem to believe that that is the truth. I think it is my low self esteem, even if i have worked on it over the years it is creeping back in... and i've always had trouble believing that people like me. That is why i find it so strange that people read my blog or comment such nice things to me, telling me i have helped them or am an inspiration. I find it so hard to believe those comments because there is a part inside of me telling me that the person is lying, how could i be an inspiration? How could someone like me? How could someone voluntarily want to spend time with me?

It helps to write these thoughts out, to try to think rationally. If A didnt like me then why would he tell me that he does or why would he be happy to see me and spend time with me? That little voice in my head that wants to convince me that nobody could like me, that i am too weird, too annoying, too shy or talkative, too boring... that voice is lying and i cant let my insecurities or low self esteem get the better of me. I have worked hard for the mental state i am in now and i know i can fight off the voice that tries to convince me that i can not be liked.





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