Sorry, that was a sidetrack. But the thing is i do like myself, but for some reason i can't quite fathom that someone else would ever like me? Even if A tells me he likes me, enjoys spending time with me and I make him happy (and the same goes for him, i.e he makes me happy and i enjoy spending time with him) but i cant seem to believe that that is the truth. I think it is my low self esteem, even if i have worked on it over the years it is creeping back in... and i've always had trouble believing that people like me. That is why i find it so strange that people read my blog or comment such nice things to me, telling me i have helped them or am an inspiration. I find it so hard to believe those comments because there is a part inside of me telling me that the person is lying, how could i be an inspiration? How could someone like me? How could someone voluntarily want to spend time with me?
It helps to write these thoughts out, to try to think rationally. If A didnt like me then why would he tell me that he does or why would he be happy to see me and spend time with me? That little voice in my head that wants to convince me that nobody could like me, that i am too weird, too annoying, too shy or talkative, too boring... that voice is lying and i cant let my insecurities or low self esteem get the better of me. I have worked hard for the mental state i am in now and i know i can fight off the voice that tries to convince me that i can not be liked.

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