I found this article which i found very interesting to read. This issomething i havent talked/written about myself. Even though i have gone through a period where i felt quite psychologically scarred by all the strict rules i had had at Mando. Being told and made to eat.eat.eat and that i was never allowed to leave a single bit of food on my plate, wasnt allowed the slightest bit of exercise. That was all wrong, so that was what i began to believe. And i almost felt scared of undereating, ever feeling hungry or having to walk that little bit extra.... i was scared of losing weight, scared of undereating and scared of going back to Mando. So it had me do the opposite - eat even if i wasnt hungry, just to make sure i was eating enough and to limit all exercise. Though this isnt healthy either if you are still living a life of fear.... fear of the past. You are trapped by your own thoughts and fears and arent following your bodies signals because you keep thinking you have to eat more and do less to avoid being 'sick'.
- you find yourself avoiding moving around, walking to class, doing the laundry or anything beyond sitting or lying down;
- you think that you should eat more than the minimum intake every day even when you are clearly not in a period of extreme hunger, and you force yourself to eat well above the minimum intake every day;
- you are experiencing intense interoception (it's the sense of what is going on in your body) where every twitch and twinge makes you think that your recovery effort is going wrong and that you are not doing it right;
- you get anxious if you cannot eat for a period of a few hours;
- And you find yourself worrying about overshooting your optimal weight set point if you fail to eat and rest constantly.