Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Thursday, April 2, 2015

Finally Easter break

Its 10.30pm in Sweden and I finally have time to sit down and think about my day! What a long day i have now been awake for 17 hours or so, though i am not feeling that tired. Though now that im sitting down and thinking about my day i have done alot!

Started off with a workout followed by school, studying, sent in my last assignment before the easter break, answered almost all emails (and there was alot of them!!!), my mum picked me up and we drove to the police station where i had to redo my ID photo as something went wrong last time. Headed home, ate a snack (which was similar to a second lunch!!), my body felt tired so i lay in bed watching a series and drinking coffee. Got lots of energy, cleaned my room thoroughly, ran to the store twice to recycle cans and bottles, continued to clean my room, then spent 2 hours baking 2 Easter cakes for tomorrow. When my step dad asked me if i wanted to make an Easter cake i said of course, though if you know me well you know that i cant just keep things simple. When i bake i go all out, which is exactly what i planned this time. Two cakes, one with lots of decorations and 'all out' and the other one more simple, berry and 'light' (though no cakes are light, they are all super filling when i make them!). As i wasnt really following a recipe and making two cakes at the same time it all got a little chaotic for a while trying to remember the next step and ingredient and which part was for which cake, but i think - and hope - that they turned out ok. The only thing is that i am missing decorations for half of my cake which made me feel a little down, but i am hoping that tomorrow - before we leave for Easter lunch at Peters mums place (here in Sweden they celebrate on the Friday instead of Sunday... Weird i know,) i hope to buy the rest of the ingredients! Otherwise my whole Easter will be ruined.... or thats how it will feel like. When i make cakes i pride myself in trying to make them look good - and taste good of course, but to me... how the cake looks matters (hahaha, sounds so egoistic and appearance focused, but when it comes to cakes, the outside matters as well! Not so much with humans, then its the inside :))
   No photos of the cakes at the moment as they arent finished yet, so they will come tomorrow :)

And to keep up with my Positives of the day!

My positives are:

Finally Easter break, lots of energy, baking, licking the bowls, sent in my last assignment before the easter break, cake, a clean room, no alarm tomorrow!!! 

Instead here is my night snack today - Left over mousse from one of the cakes which was a mix of cream cheese, cottage cheese, quark, sweetner, egg whites, an egg & white chocolate and raspberries. (Tastes soo good. So i ate the left over with some nuts)

Also super proud of myself because i can now hold a headstand for 5-10 seconds and dont need to kick myself up :) Finally some progress!
(and p.s when you are upside down and holding in your stomach, it does look thinner than it is... my waist and stomach are NOT that tiny. I can post a comparison photo if anyone feels triggered by this picture... but remember, everyone looks different!)


  1. Hi Izzy! I found this quote about positivity and thought it was pretty true. "You can be happy without being perfect, but you can't be perfect without being happy". It really makes sense, especially since in the goal to achieve "perfection" people so often lose sight of or sacrifice their happiness. Just something I've been thinking about :)

    1. This is very true :) Thank you for sharing!!! :)

  2. I've got a quote too, but some might get triggered by it, but I just can't get over how tru it is: "Your body is a reflection of your lifestyle"! One can't deny that! If you have e healthy lifestyle, your body reflects that. If you are obese or "anorexic" skinny, that says something of your lifestyle as well. Maybe not just the appearence of your body, but also the things it i capable of doing, and blood test-things (you know, if you have a low cortisol levels, and not lacking any vitamins etc).

    1. Very true. Though you can't forget that fat/skinny doesnt have to mean unhealthy, when i was underweight just because of my CF that didnt necessarily mean i was unhealthy, though of course i wasnt fully 100% healthy either. But then there are people who are overweight and so who are living a healty lifestyle with regular exercise and healthy foods, its just that weightloss takes time... but you are right from blood tests and things like that your body can show whether you are healthy or not!

  3. My positive of the day - - Moving on & making a change.

    Yesterday was a really bad day. I've not had such a 'bad' day in quite a few weeks...and I just felt awful.

    However, I am starting a fresh henceforth as I am determined not to go back :)


    1. I am proud of you for making the decision to move on and make a change!!! Stay strong and keep fighting!!! Keep moving forward :)