Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Sunday, April 19, 2015

End of the week

Somehow it is already 10pm and it feels like time has flown by far too quickly today and i have barely done anything productive. Its been a lazy-slash-chaotic day today!! As i mentioned on Friday, the filming we had done didnt turn out so good so we had planned to redo it all today (Sunday) so that was the main thing planned though i didnt know when or where. So me and A sort of sat around waiting for my friends in my group to reply and by 1pm i finally got an answer. We decided to meet at 3pm and film for our project. So to pass the time we refilled our snack bowls and plates and continued with our series watching.

Then when i was just about to leave i got a SMS wondering if we could meet at 4pm instead.... *Slight irritation* as i had stressed around trying to get everything ready and trying to plan things and such. But i waited until it was time to leave again and then we spent 2 hours filming. However during the filming i started getting super bad stomach cramps, it felt hard to concentrate, i felt sick and really warm. All i wanted to do was curl into a ball and just forget the rest of the day. So when i came back home i wasnt feeling super social or friendly, but A was still at home waiting. I tried to be social but when i told him i had stomach cramps and wasnt feeling that great he soon figured out why!! I think he understood it would be best to leave me on my own - all i would do is sleep/rest anyway as my cramps are so bad. So instead he left me with chocolate and kisses! Though i feel a little bad as i didnt want him to think i was kicking him out, but when i feel this way all i want to do is curl into a ball and be left alone in my pain (Hahah dramatic much. But it is very painful!)

This evening it has been laying in bed, trying to eat something, drinking tea and water and watching random things online!
  Tomorrow its a new week and i am ready for it!!! :)


  1. Hey izzy. Have you ever talked to a doctor about you really bad stomach cramps? While it is normal for girls to experience stomach cramping, you shouldn't have to be putting up with excruciating pain every single month. Maybe there is some type of medication or prescription pain relief you could go onto? Hope you start to feel better soon. Xx

    1. My mum and sister have said the same thing - that I should go to the doctor. As my cramps are awful and I end up not being able to do do or eat anything for 1-2 days.

  2. Hi!
    This might be a weird question, but could you write a little about how and when you got your period back in/after recovery? When did it happen, how did you deal with it and did you notice any change in your mind or on your body? I would really appreciate if you could write a little about your experience on this! :)

    have a nice week, I hope it flies by so the weekend comes around soon :)

    1. I'll try write about this today :)

  3. Someone help me I want to lose weight I feel so fat and ugly.