Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
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Thursday, April 2, 2015

Disordered eating times

Ive been asked about if it matters what time you eat food/meals.

If i put it this way, in the end of the day when it comes to weightloss, weight gain and maintenance. Its about the total calories consumed in the 24 hours (over a longer period of time) which matter. So if you look at it that way, then no... it doesnt matter. If you were to eat 2200 calories for breakfast and a snack then i mean you have your calorie intake for the day.

BUT..... I dont think thats the only way you should look at things. Because if you were to eat say 2000 calories for breakfast and a snack, that doesnt mean you shouldnt eat for the rest of the day... you still need food. Your body still needs energy. You will feel hungry again a few hours later and you still need to eat. Your body can cope with extra calories one day. However, if you are eating say 2000calories for breakfast everyday, then i wouldnt say that is very healthy.... You need to have balance with your food. Not eat everything at once.

 Also if you only eat a little amount during the day and then eat loads during the night that is not a good balance either. Think like this, say your body burns 1500 just being alive (i.e your BMR) but you need c.a 2000 just to maintain your weight, but then you only eat 600kcal from 7am-8pm then you are already at a minus of calories and your body will be so hungry that it can lead to binging during the evening because your body is crying out for food, so once you eat you can't control yourself.
   But its not a good balance because during the day is actually when your body needs the food... its during the day you are active, doing more things - usually. So its then that you need the extra food, but also giving your body food regularly every 2-4 hours is best. As it keeps your blood sugar stable and you always have energy. Its not about 'saving' calories, knowing that you will binge in the evening or thinking 'just in case'. It doesnt work that way, if you restrict during the day you are just making it more likely that you actually will binge during the evenings. But if you were to eat more during the day, then it wouldnt be as likely that you eat such huge amounts during the evening because your body actually has the energy it needs.

So try following a meal plan and eating regularly and ENOUGH during the whole day... from when you wake up to when you go to bed. Its good for breakfast, lunch and dinner to be around 300-500kcal and 2-3 snacks from 200-400 kcal.. (more or less, depending on your energy requirment... when i was at Mando i think my breakfast alone was around 700kcal) (IM SORRY FOR THE NUMBERS IF YOU FIND IT TRIGGERING, BUT ITS SUPPOSED TO BE HELPING....)

If you find that you dont have time to eat enough during the day or just cant fit in the right amount, then eat more calorie dense food. Eat nuts, avocado, add oil to food, nut butters, dried fruit etc is all good to eat or snack on to get the right energy amount.

As mentioned at first, i mean its about the total energy intake so if you eat 300kcal from 7am to 7pm and then eat 2000kcal at the evening, then you still have the right energy amount but its NOT a healthy eating plan or healthy eating. I would still consider it disordered eating.

So let go and change ALL of your weird eating patterns and habits!!


  1. I eat four times a day, and I have a stable blood sugar and energy level. I could never eat every two hours! I don't think that is very healthy because it can potentially damage your teeth! I guess it would depend on what type of foods you eat (acidy foods such as fruit, candy, juice etc. is not good to eat that often during the day). Everyone should find something that suits them when it comes to meal timing. But eating too often gives food, meals and eating such a big focus that I don't think it is very healthy...

    And if your had eaten 2000 kcal for breakfast, I don't think you would be particularly hungry the next few hours!! Let's take something unsatisfying like chocolate as an extreme example - you'd have to eat like 400 grams of chocolate to reach 2000 kcal. That would make you feel sick and bloated and full, so I doubt you'd eat anything for A LOT of hours (six hours tops!). Maybe you'd feel hungry in the evening, but never ever by chance in just a few hours!

    My breakfast and lunch is like 900 kcal in total, but my dinner and night snack is like 1600. I'm maintaning eating like this, and it suits me. I eat enough, and eating this way allows me to sit down and enjoy most of my food when I'm not stresset at school and in the morning. I have no digestive problems or anything..

    (This is not meant as critique, I'm just writing what came to my mind - I love your blog, Izzy ;) )

    1. This is true :) So thank you for adding this. What works is different for everybody and i should have added in that! I do believe that 4 bigger meals works just as well as 5-6 smaller meals. Not everyone wants to eat frequently, but like i said... its about the total energy intake at the end of the day :)

      And i think its a good point with 'food becoming too much focus'... this all depends on the person. If the person sits around and waits to eat until the 'right time' then its too much focus on food, but if you naturally are hungry every 2-4 hours then its not focus on food, its your body telling you that you are hungry. But it's something your body has adapted to... so if i wanted to i could start eating 4 bigger meals each day and then my body would eventually adapt to that and i would be hungry around those times, but for me frequent meals works best :) And for others, different things might work!

    2. Very true! :)