Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Tuesday, April 21, 2015

Be spontaneous. Go on roadtrips. Go on an adventure. Try something new. - My thoughts

This morning i woke up with this very weird and strong feeling, almost like wanderlust but not quite. It's not that i want to travel the world (not right now) but what i want to do is just be spontaneous, get away from my everyday life. Get away from routines and all these things i have to do.

I wish i could drive so that i could drive to some new forest and just spend hours walking around there.

I want to hike up a mountain and sit at the top of the mountain, enjoying life! 

I want to take a random bus and just travel somewhere new and different - somewhere exciting.

I want to go on a late night roadtrip. To just sit in the car and drive somewhere and come home early in the morning.

I want to stay in a cottage somewhere (with family/friends/A) and take morning runs and nighttime swims. To sit in the sun and eat chocolate and drink coffee. To explore the new area!

I want to take lots of pictures of new things, see new things and experience new things.

I want to run in new countries and new places, to walk in new forests, to do all types of different activities. I want the sun. I want to be able to walk outside in shorts. 

I want change and something different..... to do something different each day.

I can often feel this way - get these sudden strong feelings and thoughts where I need to change. Things need to change.Its often then that i end up changing my hair colour or changing clothes style... but now, i dont want to change those things (surprisingly) but i feel i want and need actual change. Or more, i feel i want TIME to do these things.... I want TIME to take a whole day to travel to a new forest and just walk/run there, but my planning, schdule and mind reminds me that i cant..... Or i can, but then i have to forget something else, its all a balance act. And i think that is why i feel this way, because my life is a balance act of trying to keep things together and get so much done each day. Make sure to be social, talk with friends, family, make time for A. My own workouts (which are often my Me time), school, several hours of studying each day. Then there is travelling each day, several hours spent on social media and somewhere there i find time to cook and eat food and maybe watch a 40 minute series a day or every second day...... that is my life at the moment and i dont have much time for anything else unless i disregard something else.

But soon..... Soon i will be free, even if its just for a little while before school or work begins. But I am going to make sure to give myself 1-2 weeks where if i feel i need to, just keep to myself. To explore and go on adventures and just be by myself, breathe and think for a while!!!

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