Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Monday, April 13, 2015

Back to routines and reality

The alarm rang 7am this morning and my first thought was 'I'm not ready to get up' so kept hitting snooze for the next half hour and by 7.30am i knew i had to try to drag myself out of bed so that i would get everything done today. It was my first time in more than a week having to wake up this early as well as actually being woken by an alarm. I am dreading tomorrow and the rest of the week as then it will be super early mornings followed by very long days!!
   But by trying to get up 'early' it means that i will feel more tired this evening and so fall asleep earlier and then feel refreshed and energetic Tuesday morning - ready for my Swedish national test!

Moving on, it feels good that it's Monday, or more... it feels good to get back into routines. Spend a little time at home and in my room, have some 'Me' time, go to the gym etc
At the moment my mind is feeling a little blank of words, can't quite express my thoughts or formulate my sentences in a proper way. It's one of those days where my thoughts are everywhere and easily distracted by all the different thoughts in my head. But all i wanted to say was, I am excited that it's a new week! My last day of Easter break and tomorrow its back to school!!

I am going to focus on making this week a good and positive week. Trying to not stress, making sure to get lots of mental rest and most important not to shut people out. Because at the moment i feel that i am in a period of 'Thinking too much and getting caught in my own thoughts' and can end up isolating myself without realising it, so need to make sure to keep myself open and not just freak out and curl into a ball. (Dont actually do this, but sometimes i feel like doing it.) Especially now when i have a boyfriend i cant get trapped in my own mind as that won't be good for me or him. 

Just some of the thoughts in my head at the moment this Monday morning. Soon its off to the gym - the first time in several days - and then home to study before my aunt comes over for coffee!

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