Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Thursday, March 5, 2015

Trust the process

Recovery is by no means easy, there is alot of thoughts and fears involves. Your thoughts are disordered, there is panic and anxiety and guilt inside of your mind. You have irrational fears, changes to adapt to. Everyone has a different story, a different reason they became sick so recovery is not the same for everyone. For some people it takes 6 months, for others 2 years, for others it takes 5 years (of recovery.... not the beforehand when you are still struggling with no intention of recovery): Even if small things differ between people with the illness, it is still quite similar... the same fears, the same behaviours, the same thoughts.... There are people (myself included) who have recovered from an eating disorder, so that means that it is possible. That YOU can also recover, however then you need to trust the process.
  This is something i am going to begin saying more and more on here. To trust the process. Because there is ALOT of uncertainty about recovery but sometimes you just need to be lead, you need to close your eyes and trust that the people around you can help you. Trust that those who have recovered have gone through the same process, even if some things change.
   Most people in recovery experience bloating, water retention, uncomfortable pains and cramps in their stomach. But most people also experience  feeling happier, stronger, more energetic when their body gets enough fuel, they can concentrate better, feel more motivated, do more things etc

So i suggest you SEEK help, this is very important. Because the motivation to want to recover for yourself doesnt always come at once, sometimes you just have to be guided, have someone tell you what to do and to make sure you eat while you try to find your motivation and will to recover, because without it recovery will just be a plot less film played on repeat. I am going to write a post about finding motivtation to recover, wanting to recover for YOURSELF because that is an important part of recovery.
   It's like if someone is studying the wrong thing in college, they begin to feel demotivated, uninterested, skip lessons, dont do their work etc.... but when they then change their path and study something else or find a job they love or something else, then their motivation to work hard comes back.... so you need to find YOUR reason why you want to and should choose recovery everyday and fight the thoughts in your head. (But a post will come up about that once i get a chance!)
Stages of recovery
The first steps of recovery
Weight gain in recovery
Gaining weight after anorexia: What to expect
10 phases of an eating disorder


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