Anyway, i've felt like i have had a raincloud above my head all day that has followed me around. Hard to smile. Hard to see the positives. Hard to feel happy. But this is just one day, and like the quote goes... even the worst day only has 24 hours. But this day definitely isnt on my list of worst days, just one of those grey days.
Things could be worse, infact in most areas of my life things are pretty good and according to many i have no reason to feel sad. But feelings are feelings and i know they will pass. Instead of repressing my emotions like i have done pretty much all my life, i am allowing myself to feel sad. To mope around the house, to be silent, not try to fake a smile. Instead just let these feelings be and know that they will pass and that after a good nights sleep i will be feeling better tomorrow hopefully, if not... there are more days to come and its just to make the best of each day.
These grey days always make me appreciate my good days even more. Its like times when i do get anxiety or feel very stressed, then suddenly when i feel better and happier and energetic again i appreciate it even more because i know what the opposite feels like!!!
Like i mentioned on Sunday, i want this week to be a positive week, to appreciate the little things in life. So even if i have to really fight hard to find some form of positive from this day, that is exactly what i am going to try to do. And i want YOU to comment your positives of the day aswell!!
1) Its a new week!!!
2) The sun was shining
3) Understood what we were doing in my maths lesson
4) Ive been listening to new music that A introduced me to and i love it!!! New music is the best and its the perfect type of music for when i am feeling angry and just want some really loud music!
5) Very productive with school work
6) Ive eaten many delicious meals today (I am going to post some photos later, so just skip that post if food triggers you/makes you start comparing)