Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email: lifewithoutanorexia@hotmail.com

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Tuesday, March 24, 2015

Morning struggles & some motivation

Good Morning :)

Have you ever had those mornings where you are awake and energetic but yet, you still feel half asleep and tired? You feel really hungry but at the same time not hungry at all? You feel motivated for the day but at the same time not motivated at all?
 
It's one of those mornings for me, where i feel tired but awake, hungry but not hungry and motivated while at the same time unmotivated! It feels like for most of this morning i have sat and just watched as the clock ticks by, trying to get myself to do something productive like write a post, pack my bag, look at my schedule or even brush my hair or put on make up. But nope, instead i've just sat and watched the clock thinking about what time i have to leave...... Ohh well, it's just one of those mornings. On a positive note though, its not snowing or raining. There was actually sunlight at 6.30am when my alarm rang - that is definitely a positive after the last few days of snow and rain! As they say, after the rain comes the sun!

On another note, my school life and studying is extremely overwhelming at the moment. Yesterday i just felt like crying because of the work load i have these next 2 weeks. Before each school break there is always lots to do. It's not exactly a surprise that you work like crazy before the break and then spend the whole break trying to recover from that stress load. But I always like to forget about that extreme stress and then it does come like a shock when the list of school assignments, tests and deadlines steadily grows the closer to a school break it gets.
   Instead of being unproductive which was exactly what i wanted to do yesterday - i wanted to curl into a ball and refuse to go to school and refuse to do any work - instead i ate a delicious snack with my favourite drink at the moment and filled with energy i began working on some assignments. I believe that doing a little everyday, even if its just reading over and editing a few words, that is alot better than doing nothing at all and panicking the day before the deadline. Because like they say... Rome wasnt built in day. Everyday small changes and progress :)

Today I am also heading into school 2-3 hours earlier than my first lesson to work on assignments. Some people call me crazy or a perfectionist, but this is my way of controlling my school situation, controlling my life and my stress levels. I make sure to get the work done and give myself time each day/week to work, that way i know when i am going to study and so helps decrease stress somewhat anyway :)

Also yesterday, i got a comment with the quote "Be gentle with yourself. You are doing the best you can" and it made me smile because 1) i had never heard that quote before and 2) It was exactly what i needed to hear!!

Because stress can take over me at times and that is not good, but reminding myself that i am doing the best i can it was a really good reminder! So Thank you, to you who commented this quote :) It made my day and its going to be my motto for the rest of the week - school year!!! :)




8 comments:

  1. Hey so I was going to ask if u could post more food/snack pictures .I'm not saying u have to take the time to post an entire food post everyday but I started loving this blog because u always had so many snack pictures that y had that day or ur breakfast and that seriously inspired me to come up with new ideas for my own meals and it was just nice and made me want to enjoy food because u come up with some delicious snack ideas :) it's just a thought , u don't have to do it I just loved ur food posts

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    1. I can definitely do that if you want, it's just that I got critique telling me I posted too many food pictures or that I was obsessed with food? When I was posting food pictures because it was requested! ! It's hard to please everyone I guess!! But I am going to post more if it's requested.

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    2. Could you maybe write like "food post-alert" or something at the beginning when there will be lots of food pictures? I love reading your blog, but many food pictures makes me think even more about food than I already do... :))

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    3. Yes of course :) I will mention in the title or the beginning of the post if there will be lots of food photos :)
      What is your opinion if there is like just one or two food pictures in a post? (I want to get feedback from lots of different people so i can compromise and keep all these thoughts in the back of my head when posting :))

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  2. Hey Izzy,

    since i've been through the same in the last 6 weeks i just can tell you that crying for gods sake can feel so good!
    There was a moment i totally let go, buried my face in my dogs fur and cried it all off! It took about 10minutes and i felt so much better afterwards. Because it's hard always to tell yourself to stay strong and act tough in front of others.
    And i went through the stressing time and did my best in everything. And the days go by and soon it'll all be over.
    You can make it. Of course u do.

    Christine S.

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    1. Thank you, and you are right. Just crying really can be a good idea :)

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  3. oh. sorry :/ I mean u don't have to post food pictures but thats what made me fall in love with ur blog in the first place !! :) i love how u would include random pictures of ur breakfast or snack for that day along with a post . I just think it's unique and makes ur blog that much more awesome .

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    1. I do want to post food pictures and such but i've had people tell me it can be triggering... so i will post somtimes :)

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