Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.
I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.
I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: email@example.com
Wednesday, March 18, 2015
Making the best out of a bad situation
Update from a tired girl! Today has been one of those days where most things have just gone wrong and i have wanted to bury myself in a blanket and sleep the day away.
I felt this morning how my stomach started churning and cramping, an uncomfortable pain so that was why i decided to go for a walk instead of my original plan of running. And my walk did help it a bit however it progressively got worse throughout the day and i tried keeping my energy and mood level up, so as to not be rude or bitchy. But i still feel sorry for A who was so kind to me the whole time and realising that i had alot of stomach pain. He even drove me out to the place where i was going to get my passport renewed, however as my passport had expired and i had no other identification i wasnt allowed to get my photo taken.... so have to go back there someday with my mum. That put a damper on things as i have no ID which can lead to some problems especially if i need to pick up packages or even go out to a bar etc. :( Why must some things be so difficult?
After that we headed back to my place where we didnt do so much, we took a short walk with Daisy and made a quick dinner of tortellini and pasta sauce. But most of the time all i could do was lie in bed because i had such stomach pain :( Not nice at all and i am doubting i will be able to go to school tomorrow if it continues this way. But maybe with an early nights rest i will be fine... who knows :)
I am not going to complain on here anyway...
Onto something else which i wanted to mention. Today me and A ended up talking about diets and bodyshape etc and then he said something so i jokingly said... Are you trying to tell me something, that i need to lose weight? And his response was, No, you definitely dont need to lose weight, i dont think that would be healthy. But you can do whatever you want, whether you want to gain weight, lose weight i'll still like you!
And that was soo cute, according to me anyway. Because so many people are focused on body image and only liking a person for how they look, but you know you are with the right person when they really dont care how you look. Those mornings and afternoons when you just dont care about your appearance, or when you dont wear make up etc We're both so comfortable with each other that its not those initial first stages where you need to be super fancy all the time. Its nice to feel so comfortable with someone, but also to not feel uncomfortable with my body around someone else. I didnt care that my stomach was bloated and making the weirdest noises ever, i dont care about him seeing the marks on my body or the cellulite which i have. Instead its just my body, its how i look. And he likes me for me, for more than my body. For my personality, for who i am. And that is such a nice feeling, to feel comfortable and happy around someone :)
Just some random thoughts, hopefully other people can relate to it if you have found the right one? How nice it is to have someone like you for you, to not be so focused on body image? That you like your partner for who he/she is and he/she likes you for who you are. Though of course, some level of personal care and hygiene as well as taking care of your body is recommended. It just makes you attractive when you care about your body to some extent :)
Anyway, too much rambling and my stomach is doing too much rumbling and weird noises!! So good night, and i hope you have all had a lovely day!
P.s i had planned to do a photo an hour today but realised how hard it was when we didnt do so much , so instead you get a few of the photos i took today!