Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email: lifewithoutanorexia@hotmail.com

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Wednesday, March 18, 2015

Making the best out of a bad situation

Update from a tired girl! Today has been one of those days where most things have just gone wrong and i have wanted to bury myself in a blanket and sleep the day away. 

I felt this morning how my stomach started churning and cramping, an uncomfortable pain so that was why i decided to go for a walk instead of my original plan of running. And my walk did help it a bit however it progressively got worse throughout the day and i tried keeping my energy and mood level up, so as to not be rude or bitchy. But i still feel sorry for A who was so kind to me the whole time and realising that i had alot of stomach pain. He even drove me out to the place where i was going to get my passport renewed, however as my passport had expired and i had no other identification i wasnt allowed to get my photo taken.... so have to go back there someday with my mum. That put a damper on things as i have no ID which can lead to some problems especially if i need to pick up packages or even go out to a bar etc. :( Why must some things be so difficult?

After that we headed back to my place where we didnt do so much, we took a short walk with Daisy and made a quick dinner of tortellini and pasta sauce. But most of the time all i could do was lie in bed because i had such stomach pain :( Not nice at all and i am doubting i will be able to go to school tomorrow if it continues this way. But maybe with an early nights rest i will be fine... who knows :)

I am not going to complain on here anyway...

Onto something else which i wanted to mention. Today me and A ended up talking about diets and bodyshape etc and then he said something so i jokingly said... Are you trying to tell me something, that i need to lose weight? And his response was, No, you definitely dont need to lose weight, i dont think that would be healthy. But you can do whatever you want, whether you want to gain weight, lose weight i'll still like you! 
 
And that was soo cute, according to me anyway. Because so many people are focused on body image and only liking a person for how they look, but you know you are with the right person when they really dont care how you look. Those mornings and afternoons when you just dont care about your appearance, or when you dont wear make up etc We're both so comfortable with each other that its not those initial first stages where you need to be super fancy all the time. Its nice to feel so comfortable with someone, but also to not feel uncomfortable with my body around someone else. I didnt care that my stomach was bloated and making the weirdest noises ever, i dont care about him seeing the marks on my body or the cellulite which i have. Instead its just my body, its how i look. And he likes me for me, for more than my body. For my personality, for who i am. And that is such a nice feeling, to feel comfortable and happy around someone :)

Just some random thoughts, hopefully other people can relate to it if you have found the right one? How nice it is to have someone like you for you, to not be so focused on body image? That you like your partner for who he/she is and he/she likes you for who you are. Though of course, some level of personal care and hygiene as well as taking care of your body is recommended. It just makes you attractive when you care about your body to some extent :)

Anyway, too much rambling and my stomach is doing too much rumbling and weird noises!! So good night, and i hope you have all had a  lovely day!

P.s i had planned to do a photo an hour today but realised how hard it was when we didnt do so much , so instead you get a few of the photos i took today!








18 comments:

  1. My boyfriend is the same, like as a young teenager I thought boys expected girls to be perfect, but now I'm older I can see that is not the case at all!

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    1. Some guys are definitely like that, but then i feel sorry for their partners. Because relationships are so much more than appearance! I am glad to hear you have such a nice boyfriend :)

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  2. Izzy, I hope your stomach feels better soon! What do you think it is? The energy drinks? I am so sorry-stomach pain is so annoying and painful.

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    1. Thank you :)I think its some CF related things, but i am not fully sure. However now (Saturday) I am feeling 99% healthy again :)

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  3. My boyfriend continuously tells me I'm beautiful, and that he thinks I will be, whatever size or shape I am. I am slowly starting to believe him, but its difficult when you still have quite a lot of critical thoughts about your body.

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    1. It can be hard to accept and listen to compliments, but know that he isnt lying. So even if you have to fake believe it at first, really do try to listen and accept those compliments and begin to believe them :) Fight that critical voice in your head!

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  4. I hope I find the right one when the day comes :) Its so nice what he said and I feel so happy for you!! It must be a great feeling :) hope you feel better soon! I got the flu a couple of months ago and the stomach aches were pretty painful so I just wish you feel better!!

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    1. Thank you!! <3 And i am beginning to feel alot better now, almost completely healthy again which is such anice feeling!! Stomach pain is the worst.

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  5. I hope u feel better soon!! :) Stomach pain is horrible.

    I am so glad u have found someone caring who loves you for being you. Xx

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  6. Hey, Izzy! I was just wondering, could you write something about online dating maybe? :D I mean, you met A online, didn't you? Wasn't it scary when you first got to meet him? I am scared as there are so many people who pretend to be one kind of person but in real life they can be rapist or even a killer :D sorry if it sounds stupid but i'm just interesting :D

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    1. Iv answered this in a post yesterday, so hopefully you got your answer there :)

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  7. Why does your belly keep hurting? Is it lactose still?

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    1. I am not so sure what it is... i think its something CF related anyway :)

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  8. My boyfriend is like yours - he loves me for who i am & that gives me so much confidence. He sounds like a really good one Izzy!

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    1. That sounds lovely :) I am glad you are with someone who likes you for you, thats how it should be! And yeah, A is pretty amazing :)

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  9. aw yay!! A sounds really kind :) He is a perfect match fro someone as sweet as you!! <3

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    1. Naaw thank you :) He really is the nicest and i am glad i have met him!

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