Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Wednesday, March 18, 2015

Lies your eating disorder tells you (reminders)

Lies which your ED tells you, but remember they are not true.

ED:You are not sick enough
Truth:There is no 'sick enough.' All and any eating disorders kill. Every eating disorder is dangerous and every sufferer, no matter what weight, needs help.
ED:'I'll stop when I'm x weight'
Truth:Nothing will ever be good enough for the eating disorder. Period. It is only lying when it says this.
ED:There are others who have it worse, you don't deserve help.
Truth:Yes, some others may have worse situations, but that does not invalidate your disorder. You deserve health, help and happiness just as much as anyone.
ED:It's not really hurting/damaging.
Truth:Any/all ED behaviours are damaging to your mind and body. Whether it is abuse of pills, purging, restricting, over exercising or anything in between, it is a fatal action that is dangerous.
ED:These are bad foods, these are good foods.
Truth:There is no bad or good food. Food is neutral. Eat what makes your body feel good, don't make rules about certain types of food due to calorie content or nutritional value.
ED:You are worthless.
Truth:No one on this planet is worthless. Every single person has a place, a reason and worth.
ED:Only I can make you happy.
Truth:An eating disorder will never satisfy you. It will lie and deceive while slowly killing you. It's an enemy, not a friend.
ED:The treatment professionals are lying to you. They want to hurt you.
Truth:They're tying to help and the eaitng disorder is lying. Separate yourself from the eating disorder here and think of what YOU want, not the ED.
ED:You can start recovering when you reach x weight
Truth:Nothing is good enough for the eating disorder. You may reach x weight, but you'll only be caught up in the vicious cycle of an ED and be dragged in deeper. Recovery does not have a number limit.
DO NOT believe these lies. Be strong, go against the voice in you head. Overcome your fear and anxiety, because its the tough ttimes that makes you stronger.
  Dont believe your ED when it says tha tyou just need to lose a few more kilo and then you will stop... because you wont be happy, you will always see something wrong. Feel fat and want to lose more. Even when you are just skin and bones.

I constantly felt fat. I never thought i was sick. I just wanted to lose more weight. Food gave me anxiety, but still... i didnt think i was sick. I knew something was wrong with me... but i definitely wasnt skinny enough or sick enough to have anorexia. Even if i had been an inpatient 3 times already... it didnt make sense to me.

Your ED lies to you.... and you need to fight back, take control.
Recover. Get YOUR life back.


  1. Awesome post!!! :)
    I have a question, I fear a really bad fear of sugar... i sugar actually bad for you?

    1. Thank you. I am going to write a post about this... so hopefully that helps :) You shouldnt be scared of sugar though. Everything in balance :)

  2. Thats true I always have these thoughts in my head. But a helpful and great post anyway! ^^

    1. Try to fight these thoughts instead. Dont let them control you, try to think rationally and be stronger than your eating disorder.

  3. Ignore those lies. Replace them with truth. <3 it.