Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

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Monday, March 2, 2015

How to focus less on food

As i promised in a previous post, i am going to write about how to focus less on food. Because with an eating disorder there is an obsession with food, alot of time and thoughts go towards food. And during recovery you need to break those thoughts, you need to focus on other things. Obsessing and spending too much time thinking about food isnt a good thing unless its something you work with and its part of a job or so. (Which is something i feel i need to clarify, that the food pictures i take are part of my so called 'job'. The food pictures i take is part of what i do on social media and i do get compensation for it, so just putting it out there so that people are aware of this. Just like fashion bloggers can be called vain or self centered, but when they get paid or compensation for taking clothes pictures then that is part of their job :) But like mentioned in my previous post, i am going to cut down on the food writings and pictures to make it easier for others to focus less on food as well).

So how do you break the food obsessed thoughts? You begin with not giving food the power to control you.

If you spend your whole time thinking about food, then that is going to be what controls you. But instead when you realise that food is energy, just like you have to give your car energy to drive. You need to give your body energy so that it can take you from A to B. Because that is what your body is meant for, so that you can do things, but without food (energy) you cant do things. Your body cant run on empty, not forever anyway eventually your body will give up.
  So when you realise this that food is energy and calories is energy then it can make it easier to not feel so obsessed with food. Food should be part of your life, and your body is very smart. It tells you what your body needs if you truly listen. You are craving chocolate? There is a reason for that... whether its because you are tired, you havent eaten enough during the day, you havent eaten enough carbs, you need more B vitamin or you need magneisum or its that time of month for girls.... they are all reasons why you can be craving chocolate, Just like with all cravings there is a reason for it and when you listen to your body then food gives you the energy and nourishment you need so that you cna live your life, so that you have energy, feel happy and positive. Food is also a way of giving your body all the nutrients, vitamins and minerals it needs to keep you healthy and happy, so that your organs can work well!
See food as the way to give you energy and nourishment. Also there is NO CHEAT meals. There is NO GUILT food. Food should not be something that evokes guilt or anxiety. No food is bad in moderation, everything in balance and moderation. So try to move away from the mind set that there is good or bad food or that some food is clean whilst another food is unclean. Thats not how food should be seen.... instead listen to your body, try to eat everything in balance i mean just eating spaghetti with cheese and tomatoe sauce isnt so good and neither is just eating salad with cucumber and chicken breast. Variation is what will keep your body healthy.

Once you realise this and try to not give food any power over you, there is alot of mental thoughts and processes behind those two steps. You need to take back YOUR control and your thoughts, not let them wander to food. Trying to move away from looking at food pictures, papers with calories and nutritional values, calorie apps, pinterests filled with food pictures or taking pictures of every meal you eat - unless its for a certain purpose such as showing your dietician what you are eating or because it helps you stay accountable for eating. 

While doing these things you need to begin trying to do more things with your life and your day. Find new hobbies. Start a new group, do something you've wanted to do before, try a new sport, try something new and different. Until you try you wont know if you like it or not. 
  Try to spend time with healthy friends, however if its friends who just spend their whole time talking about food, diets, calories etc then try to distance yourself from them for a while or just tell them straight up that maybe they can talk about something else than food!! XD
   When you begin to immerse yourself in other things, find new interests and hobbies then the focus on food becomes less because it just becomes a part of your life.
  But also spending time with friends and family who are healthy that helps take focus away from food as well because you realise that food is just a part of their life, its not something they think or analyze over. They eat when they are hungry, stop when they are full (Mostly) and there is not so much to it than that, and they still maintain their weight.

As you become healthier, do more things with your life, spend time with people, out in nature, enjoy your hobbies and interests, have goals and dreams then food becomes less of a focus. But YOU need to make conscious choices to not let food control you. To take the power away from food and your ED. Instead put those thoughts on better things in life.
  Because sure, like mentioned somedays/weeks there is more planning and thought going towards food, it is something that makes people happy and something to be enjoyed, but its when its an obsession and all thoughts (almost) go towards food then its not good. So put more energy towards your goals and dreams and your hobbies and let food give you energy so that you can live life! And dont feel guilty for eating any type of food, or eating more some day. Food should NOT have the power to control you.

(This post is supposed to be helpful, though i know it might be percieved as triggering, maybe? Or im not so sure, but i am hoping it is helpful anyway! )


  1. Thank you for such a helpful post!! :)

    When I was very, very ill I would be obsessed with food - cooking for others, watching tv shows about cooking, collecting recipes, thinking about what to eat (although not eating) etc.

    It was horrible because I was SO desperate to eat (starved), yet I would torture myself by not allowing myself what my body needed most...

    Food = Energy
    Now I am doing more physical activities, keeping busy and hobbies that I love and make me happy I need to eat to have the energy to do these things + working towards a 'healthy' weight.

  2. I don't know if I've sent this comment earlier, but, anyways.. I'm trying it again!
    I don't focus that much on food as I've done earlier, not nearly as much, really. But I've become afraid of it. Not afraid of food, because eating is much easier - but I'm afraid of focusing too much on food, thinking too much about food. So my brain can go like "DON'TTHINKABOUTFOODDON'TTHINKABOUTFOOD" and that doesn't really help. This is really a problem for me, though it's worse some days and easier other days, but... do you have any advice? Because I feel super guilty every time I think about food and it's not fun at all..