I remember you mentioning that you feel older than your age.
I kind of feel the same way and I would love to read your thoughts about that.
For a long time, because of my past, i have felt different from my friends. And i still do to some level as 1) I am older than them because of having missed 2 years of school but also because i feel that i grew up so early. I have been through more struggles and tough times in my short time on life than some people will face in their life time. I always felt like i was different, i had my secret past as well as my CF which i havent talked about either. I couldnt laugh as easily as the others, i didnt feel as i was free and had no problems like the others.
However, i have now learnt and realised that everyone has their struggles and problems. It's easy to think that you are the only one who is struggling, the only one who is going through tough times and that no one else understands or knows how it feels like. And no, someone else might never be able to fully understand your situation, feelings and thoughts, but that doesnt mean that you are the only one going through those feelings. There are people in my class who have also suffered from depression, who have self harmed, people who deal with anxiety disorder and another who gets panic attacks due to stress or other reasons. One of my friends also has diabetes.