Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Thursday, March 5, 2015

Answers part 3

why does food give us so much joy? why do humans love food so much? (at least i do)
Well food and eating is a basic human need. Its what our bodies need to survive, that is why things like sleep, water when you are really thirsty, food and even sex can make people feel so happy. Because they are things the body needs and wants however when food has the power to control your feeelings and its the only thing that makes you happy then it is not always a good sign. If too much thought goes to food and eating just to make you feel happy/comfort you, it can turn into emotional/comfort eating. Though this is when food is abused and eaten to try to numb/deal with feelings etc 
   But also food tastes delicious, some food combinations trigger something in the brain and can release hormones which makes you feel happier and some foods have carcinogenics in them, making you feel slightly addicted to the foods and unable to stop eating them.

I found a good answer from Ramani Durvasula, PhDPsychology, about why food can make you feel so happy and why its not always a god thing.

While there is some evidence that certain foods - and they often tend to be sugars/fats - can activate dopaminergic reward pathways, by and large - any power food has, is the power we give it.  When we feel "out of control" with a food - then we do truly believe it has a power over us.    Over time, if we use foods to help us with sadness, to celebrate, to numb - we associate the food with the feeling, and it gets more power that way.   Food is a mind game - while some foods are more reinforcing than others, and easier to get "swept away" by (e.g. cookies, chips, ice cream), it is by monitoring the feelings that foods bring up in us that is the first step to breaking those associations and treating food like food and not power.

Why don't you want your family to know about your blog ? (If I am right in thinking that they don't know).
They do know about my blog, i just prefer if they dont read it :) Mainly because i post so much recovery stuff and its not relevant for them to read it/see it, but also when i post about old stuff/pictures etc and when i post some thoughts of mine which doesnt happen so often, but it can feel weird..... i still somehow think that my blog is super private and my own 'little thing', but in reality it really isnt and i know my sister reads my blog time to time!

How many meals do you think it's best to eat per day?
Whatever suits you best and you get the right energy intake into you. Whether you do that through 3-4 BIG meals or 6-7 smaller meals is individual. Though i usually recommend 5-7small meals per day as it keeps the hunger at bay and the blood sugar stable :)

 How much water should I drink per day?
Aim for 1,5-2l (and more if you exercise).... though i drink a crazy amount of water per day!! XD

 Do you think it's ok to drink a few cups of coffee each day?
I wouldnt drink more than 3 cups per day,  too much of anything isnt good!

 Should I drink less water and coffee in recovery?
Well if you arent able to eat the amount you need to because you are drinking lots then yes, i would cut down on the liquid intake. But drinking enough water each day is just beneficial to your body for many different reasons so try to get in a few glasses of water each day, but dont go insane and drink like 4l, because then you are unlikely to be able to fit in enough food. With coffee, just like the answer above.... too much of anything isnt good and you shouldnt replace food intake with liquid intake.


  1. What do you eat for breakfast? :) do you eat the same thing Every day or do you just take what you want/what you have at home? :)

  2. You know eating 5-7 meals a day is scientificly proven to INCREASE fullness feeling and keeps the blood sugar stable (of couse this is olny if you have eaten enough by the end of the day, otherwise you would naturally get hungry ;) ). But you are right - it's up to each and every one what they like the best.

    1. I meant to write 3-4 meals a day NOT 5-7 meals!!

  3. carcinogens cause cancer, not addiction!