- The cramps, the pains, the bruises on your body.... if you are too skinny then lying on a bed or sitting can hurt your body and you can get bruises. When i was in hospital in Ireland i would wake up with bruises on my body because the mattress was too hard. But also i got knee, hip and lower back pain from all the exercising and standing i did. I didnt rest, i pushed through the pain so that even today i still have back and hip pain and can get knee pain at times.
- Insomnia.... not being able to sleep no matter how tired you felt. Your brain wouldnt shut off, your body too hungry or you're too restless. Your hormones and body all crazy and sleep seems as impossible as flying to the moon.
- The bloating in the face and body as well as the chipmunk cheeks after a binge or purging. You feel a bit like a pufferfish in the face and in the body.
- The lack of concentration, energy or motivation in most aspects of your life.... there were times completely zoned out of conversations. There are days i cant even remember what i did or what happened. Memories people talk about where i was with them and i have absaloutly no recollection of them despite there being photos. Being a walking zombie, not really able to participate in life as you dont have the energy for it.
- The constant thoughts of death.... Death quite honestly sits on your shoulder. Whispering that death would be better... thoughts of suicide, wishing life was over they can be daily or weekly thoughts that swirl around in your head. Draining you of energy and happiness.
Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.
I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!
If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email: firstname.lastname@example.org
Wednesday, February 4, 2015
What you arent told about eating disorders Part 2
Continuing from my previous post yesterday, here are 5 more things which people who dont havent suffered with an eating disorder arent aware about. And even if you are suffering you might not have experienced these things.... hopefully not anyway.