Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email:


Tuesday, February 24, 2015

The reason you shouldnt give up

There are often times in life when people feel like giving up. Life is too hard and there seems to be no light at the end of the tunnel, sometimes giving up seems easier..... But its not. Death is not something to think lightly about and giving up on life is not something that should be considered. Instead, try to find the good things in life.... remind yourself that if today is the worst day of your life, then tomorrow can only be better.

Remind yourself of things you want to do in life, of things you might miss out on if you werent here. 

Here are just some reasons why you shouldnt give up on life:

Because you will miss out on:

  • Those bonding moments you have with friends/family/partner/animal
  • Those moments when you just laugh and you feel this happiness radiate inside you
  • When you find the person you truly love and enjoy spending time with
  • Those mornings when you wake up and feel happy that its a new day
  • When you finally achieve something you havent been able to do before
  • When you reach a goal you have had
  • When you do something kind for others and you see how their face lights up and you feel happy inside (Hopefully!)
  • When its sunny outside and you can't wait to go outside and do something fun
  • Brunches!!!
  • Travelling
  • Adventures
  • New memories
  • All the new songs, films, series that will be released!!
  • Trying new coffee or tea flavours (or chocolate or ice cream flavours!!)
  • Finding a new hobby you love
  • Making new friends
  • Learning new things
  • Seeing rainbows!
  • Long road trips (if you enjoy those!)
  • Seeing the world & travelling
  • Dancing, running, walking, moving your body (if you enjoy that!)
  • Cuddling with your pet
  • Laughing
  • Spending time with your nearest and closest!
  • Drinking coffee/tea
  • Reading new books
  • Going to concerts or festivals
  • Doing things on your bucketlist
  • Setting new goals for yourself

You will miss out on so much.... think about what could happen, what you will miss out on. I know it can seem hopeless right now if you are in a very awful or dark place, then these types of things dont matter. But i can promise you, death wont help. But also a failed suicide attempt, that will just cause so many problems. It might however be a wake up call, but for me... my failed suicide attempts just spurred me on to truly try to kill myself. But if i had died back in 2011 or 2012 then i would have missed these past 3 years of my life which might have been the best years of my life as well as i have grown as a person, learnt so much, done so many new things, made so many new memories and gotten to know amazing people in my life!!!

And you may think.. im just lucky but its not luck. Its about thinking positive and NOT giving up during the bad times, because yes i have experienced bad times these past 3 years as well, but ive known that things will get better and they have!!


  1. A happy birthday mail from my mother
    then just after second mail from her teling me how much I hurt her by being anorectic...that I have no idea how hurting it can be seeing her child self destroying and that I will never know as i do not want to have childs....

    that she gave up and has no more hope in me restoring, that it is up to me now

    that I have destroyed my life, that i screwed thing up....

    Nice hein !!

    1. I had to listen to the very same accusations and I even had to take the blame for my mom having suffered from cancer!
      Don't listen to what your family says. They don't know better. They don't know what it is like what we are going through, they just think that we should stop behaving like this and eat and everything is fine.
      I could go on and on about this... but it wouldn't make a difference. Try not to let it get to you so bad!

    2. Im so sorry to hear that, but you should not be made to feel that way. Its hard for those who are around the person who is sick, to see them struggling and not be able to help. It is tough for them as well, but accusing you of ruining everything that isnt fair, because you are already struggling and feel guilty for so many other things.
      Instead, you should take those words and use them as strength to fight against your ED. To show your mum that you arent a failure or ruin everything. Instead, show others that you are strong enough to recover. Even if its tough, but you have to want and chooser recovery everyday. To know that its tough but it gets easier.
      Find people who can support you in recovery and help you, not pull you down and make you feel like crap. Parents arent always nice, and that is awful when parents bring down their children and say mean things like that. But try to not let it affect you and instead be stronger than those comments and know that you will prove her wrong by ACTUALLY recovering.

  2. Hi I love that you are so happily recovering. Thankfully I haven't struggled too badly with eating problems, but I do battle anxiety everyday. I've just started my own blog and would love if anyone would check it out,

    Sarah x