Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email:


Monday, February 2, 2015

Starting this day on a positive note

Goood Morning!!!

Ive decided to start this Monday morning on a positive note!!! With a smile and thinking about my goals for this week, what it is i want to achieve and do! :)

Well my first goal is to not stress.... there may be alot to do, but stressing wont help it just makes things worse. So all i can do is take a deep breathe and do my best. (P.s i just realised that i had promised to write a post about coping with school during recovery & how to catch up in school... so i promise to write that as soon as i get a chance.. to you who asked, just remind me if i dont within the next few days :))

My second goal this week is to make sure to spend time with family and friends and so..... I skyped my dad yesterday which was nice and im hoping to Skype my best friend from Ireland sometime this week and also to meet a friend i havent met in a while. As well as making sure to show my appreciation and happiness for my friends in school as well as my family :) Its important to show your love and appreciation to those who are close to you :)

This week i want to really start challenging myself in my workouts... new routines, new exercises, new workout plan. Its so easy to get stuck doing the same thing, but now i want to start feeling some progress with my strength and start challenging myself with those harder exercises which i cant do yet. (Though i am proud of myself that i can do decline push ups from a bench!)

Make sure to rest, laugh and have some of my own time. Its easy to spend too much of my energy on other things and other people, not taking a moment to pause and think about how im feeling and what it is i want to do... i.e when i want to spend time with everyone or do 100 things at once, then priortizing is what is needed and sometimes i forget about myself and my 'free relaxation time'. Though in all honesty... it just feels like i have done so much of that for the past X years, so now when i have a chance to do so many things i dont want to miss an opportunity!

Running and intervals!!! There may be snow outside, but i can still run on the treadmill (Blahhhh... blahhh... blahhh) or do intervals!!! I cant let my running progress stop, though it will be easier once the snow melts :)

Keep my room tidy 4/7 days a week.... i cleaned it yesterday but it feels like it will be messy by this evening, but i am going to keep it in the back of my head to actually put away my clothes, not just throw them on a pile on the floor and to not have a collection of coffee and tea cups standing on my desk or 99 different papers all spread out everywhere. A clean room = more relaxation and more calming!

These are just some of my goals for the week and what i am going to keep in mind :)

Do you usually write some goals for the start of the new week? Do you have any goals for this week? :)


  1. Does A know that you blog? Does he know about you having an eating disorder? Are you going to tell him? Does he workout? Just curious... you don't have to answer if you don't want to.

  2. Hello Izzy,

    Remember I am the 11 BMI girl to whom you recommendedto "increase with about 500kcal every 1-2 weeks so that your body has time to adjust" as I am in recovery process.
    Up to how much calories must I push, i am terrified, actually I am gaining 100/200g every day...and when I see my weight increasing so quickly I have to fight bad thought of food restrictions.

    When I saw I have put on 1 kg in a week (wich can seem absolutely ridiculous regarding my BMI and unsufficient), the first thought I had was to eat less today and not take my night snack bowl of pasta and oïl, yogurt and fruit.... to reduce my meals.

    Then second thought surged, thanks good (!), that have hit bottom and that I did not have choice than face things and continue putting on weight, even if it is hell, unconfortable and so on.....
    but i still struggle eating but gess it will pass that it it just a bad time to go through as my mind is completely fucked up.

    I try not to weight my food, I try not to have bad thought, I think & dream about you and that you did it.
    I admire you and want to be able to do something about my life now that I am almost 40 !!!! Crazy !!!

    I have trouble structuring my meals, do know up to how much calories a day I have to push up to as I have the tendency to greately overestimate my intakes......

    1. Im glad that you could push through the bad thoughts, i know its tough but it can and will get better. You just have to push through these feelings and fight those fears. In the beginning your body can gain 3-6kg in a week as its water and shock for the body but then you gain roughly 0,5-1kg per week which is normal and think your body NEEDS to gain wieght. One way or the other... so if you gain 1 or 2kg in a week, who cares because either you gain it in a week or 4 weeks... but do you want to spend your whole life scared of eating and trying to gain weight?
      By increasing your intake you will help your metabolism recover as well which is a good thing :)

      I dont know how much you are eating right now but i would recommend that you eventually eat about 3000- 3500 BEFORE reaaching a healthy weight... so you keep increasing. I know it may seem alot, but look at it like this if you can eat more during recovery it means you can then eat more when you are a normal weight compared to if you eat 1500kcal and gain weight during recovery then your metabolism hasnt recovered and you can only eat about 1200kcal to maintain (just an example)

      Make sure to eat more and eat about 6-7 meals per day, drink milk or juice to all your meals and eat calorie dense food. Try not to count calories or weigh food just eat more than what you think... i.e take a portion then add more, because you cant really trust your eye sight when you are struggling.

      It can get better!