But also i remember how it felt when you finally get some time at home after being an inpatient. The nerves, the anxiety but also excitement!!! It might also be nice to read about someone elses progress who is in the situation right now!!
Well where do I begin Izzy...as you might recall I had the eating disorder assessment test on the 6th january...hard to believe it's almost a month ago now. I was extremely nervous and every fibre of my being was screaming at me not to go, but I knew in my heart that this was what I needed, and that whatever the outcome, it was for the best. I answered all their questions as openly and honestly as I could. No longer did I want to keep any secrets. I suppose I felt like that I have been carrying those secrets around with me for years...and the time had come to take courage and cast away all masks and disguises. I felt an immense sense of relief, in revealing to them the full truth about me and my eating disorder. And then when it was done the doctor I had met there gently told me she thought I would benefit most from going inpatient. I had steeled myself for this, but the weekend before I was to go into hospital, I was so, so upset and cried for days on end.