Life without Anorexia

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'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

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Tuesday, February 10, 2015

Overeating because its delicious

Ive gotten asked recently about binging/overeating on food, just because its delicious. I think this is a fear that many people have and especially during recovery... you think that if you begin eating and allowing yourself to eat things like chocolate, ice cream, cookies etc that you wont be able to stop yourself and you'll just keep eating and eating.
   I cant answer whether that will or wont happen, because you could go through a stage of extreme hunger where you just want to eat everything but as you get closer to your normal weight then your body shouldnt feel so deprived and so you shouldnt feel the need to binge every time you eat something that has sugar in it.

But also there could be a reason why you are overeating/binging on a certain food. It could be your bodies way of telling you that you need more carbs or energy or fat. Though of course, it is possible to overeat just because food is so delicious.
  I am pretty sure most people have done it/do it. I do anyway.... sometimes i make pancakes for 4 people and i eat 75% of it. Or i buy one of those big Marabous biscuits with the intention to share with my sister and i end up eating 80% of it at once. It happens, that food is delicious. Sometimes it is harder to stop yourself from eating the whole thing but you dont need to feel bad over that.  However if it becomes a regular thing where as soon as you have one bite of chocolate or one cookie or a handful of crisps and suddenly you cant stop yourself from eating everything and finishing the whole package, then i think you should ask yourself  why you cant eat balanced or moderately when it comes to that type of food.
  Some foods can be trigger foods though, for example back in 2012 and even 2013 if we ever bought a big back of salted nuts there was a 99% chance that i would eat the whole bag or atleast 80% of it at once... just because i couldnt stop myself. The reason being it was soo good, it was addictive, but also i think my body needed more energy. Now i no longer feel the need to eat 200g salted cashews just because we have it at home, though of course it is very easy to take one handful, then another and then another. But i can atleast stop myself after say the 3rd handful!!

If there are some foods which are just so delicious that you want to eat it all, well allow yourself to eat alot of it, but also be conscious and know that you dont need to eat it all at once....

For some people they are too strict with themselves in everyday life so then once they go to a party or go somewhere else to eat then they go all out because for them its black or white thinking. Its all or nothing. And that type of thinking is very dangerous when it comes to food and eating... i used to think that way before as well, but it lead to binging.... when you tell yourself that you can only eat something if you are somewhere else, you cant eat it even if you are craving it.... but then you give in and you eat a cookie and suddenly you think, well.... ive screwed up so then you eat the whole package of cookies, you eat a tub of ice cream followed by a bag of chocolate... just because you ate one cookie? Food is not black and white... wouldnt it have been better if you ate that cookie because you craved it, maybe took another one if thats what you wanted or you were just satisfied with one cookie... and then you move on with your life. You dont mess up your diet or your life because you eat something different.

But back to the main topic... overeating because food is delicious, yes it can happen. The best thing is to be conscious of when you eat it and why you eat it..... do you really need to eat 5 slices of cake or is it enough with just 1 or 2? Make sure to eat enough during the day and regular meals. But also see if it something that is triggering you to eat so much... it could be your bodies signals, it could just be the taste but it could also be something else.... But that is something YOU need to figure out.


  1. <3 thank you Izzy, this was very helpful and reassuring :)
    One of my big anxieties right now, is once I get to normal weight I will find it hard to stop eating all of this food I am now eating in recovery (as I have got back my appetite and I am really enjoying all the food I eat now!) and I will just keep on gaining weight, it will be out of control. I also love chocolate and sweet things and I often get these depressing silly thoughts like, gosh when I am weight restored I wont be able to eat choclate every day, drink hot choc, eat dessert, except maybe a few times week, or i will become overweight. :( do you have any advice on this? Thank you Izzy <3 xxxxxxxxx

    1. I understand your fear and I will try write a post about it :)

  2. thank you very much for this helpful post :) the 'black &white' describes it very well

    1. I'm glad it helped! Remember food isn't black or white.... you don't need to eat it all or nothing.

  3. Thank you so much for this!

  4. Perhaps it is wiser to wait with the fear "foods" till the body is recovered and the hunger is normal:) I will focus on food, not everything delicious, when I gain weight.

    1. Well if you don't face your fears now... who says you will face them when you are a healthier weight? It's easier to face them when you are in recovery and need to gain weight... but also you shouldn't post pone those type of things just because it seems to scary, that is exactly why you need to face the fears!!

  5. This fear is something I'm finding my team aren't taking seriously enough as we work towards getting me ready to fully accept help and recovery. It's a huge fear, and having 'recovered' from anorexia already once in my life only to swing to binge eating, it's the main thing blocking me at the moment.

    Ah, food. Sometimes I wish eating disorders could be treated with an abstinence approach like a drug or alcohol addiction!


    1. Ohh I'm so sorry to hear about this, it must be very hard when you have experienced both sides of an eating disorder. But then it's even more important to try to find balance... not eat everything but not eat nothing either. But I am going to try to write another post about eating too much after recovery and weight gain...