Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Tuesday, February 17, 2015

Moving away from your eating disorder

In recovery your goal is to move away from your eating disorder.  To let go of all the bad habits and to no longer identify yourself with the eating disorder. To fight the bad thoughts and be free.
When taking a nap because you are tired is no longer something to be amazed over, or eating extra or just a random handful of nuts because you are hungry is no longer something to be proud of. To not have rules about food or exercise, to not be held back in life by made up regulations and because of control issues. To just be free. ... not compare your life in the present with the past. It's easy to get stuck in your eating disorder especially if you use social media as a way to help and cope with recovery, but it's easy to get stuck in recovery and identify yourself with your ED even more. But you want to let go.....

For me, sometimes it's hard to imagine that I actually had an eating disorder or to imagine that I once suffered so much guilt around food or even to think that I used to force myself to exercise at 5am in the morning or out running 10 km in the evenings, hating it.  Now I could never mentally force myself out to run 10 km in the dark if that wasn't what I wanted to do right then..... It doesn't feel like it was me, but that's because it wasn't. It was the eating disorder inside of me.
In everyday life I don't think about my past I don't really compare my life now to then... I just live my life and that's how life should be after recovery. Learn from your mistakes and move on. Don't hold onto old ED  thoughts or habits, live a free life.

You need to learn to let go and move forward.... the longer time passes the less you identify and connect yourself with your (past) eating disorder... the memories and feelings fade. The anxiety and panic is no longer there and as the time continues to pass you become more and more free. Aim to look forward and keep moving forward and dont get stuck in the past, dont let your ED carry on living in your mind. Fight your ED and move away from it!!


  1. Yes this is just what I needed to read right now! Thanks Izzy xx

  2. How to get rid of the shame of your past after recovery (waiting for the 'Let It Go's, though)? I often find myself anxious for my naiveness back when sick. It warps me into a freak, I can't stand the idea of having had the ability to morph into something so unwell with my own head. I'm all fine now, but my earlier year really upset me like that.

    1. Well, not even years* but times*