Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
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Tuesday, February 3, 2015

Dangers of a low BMI

Hi :) I was wondering if you could talk about the dangers of a low bmi. Like I feel like mentally Im good for the most part, but I just have a low bmi. And yeah I know youll say well if your mentally good, why cant you gain weight? but I just like my body now so... but are there actually any dangers when you still have a low bmi but eat normally?

   The first thing i am going to say.... even though it might not be what you want to hear, but who says you wont like your body after gaining weight? You dont know how you will look or how your body will function.

  Its easy to trick yourself into thinking that you are feeling ok, that your body is working fine and that you are happy.... but are you? Do you have energy? Does your body hurt? Can you relax or does your body hurt or get very restless?

If you are mentally recovered, then why not give gaining weight another chance. Reach your goal weight.... see how it feels, wait a few weeks focus on body positivity and if you absolutely cant stand it... then you know how to lose weight. But unless you try it, you cant say that you wont like it. You will look different to your pre-ed weight and body.

Also i think its important to ask yourself... how are you maintaining your body weight now? I know you say you eat normally... but do you allow yourself to eat your cravings? Do you listen to your body? Do you eat the food you like and enjoy and not just eat low calorie foods or use certain disordered behaviour to maintain your weight? These are just some good questions to ask yourself and to be honest with yourself.

Now, onto your actual question... the dangers of having a low BMI. I dont know how low your BMI is, but for some people they are naturally a BMI 18 or 17,5 and yes that is underweight and low. But that doesnt mean the person is unhealthy however, after an eating disorder your body does need to weigh more to feel healthier and safer and begin functioning properly again. So going back to your pre-ed weight if it was underweight isnt recommended. Your body will find its set point whether that's BMI 19 or BMI 22 and some people even have a higher healthy BMI. 

Even if you are eating 'enough', your body is underweight... just like being over weight (even if the person eats normally) the body is under stress and pressure from the over weight or underweight. The body is working extra hard to pump blood, to have the organs function properly everyday and all the processes in the body working ok. But after a long time, the stress that is put on the organs and heart will be too much.
  Of course being malnourished and underweight arent really the same thing and a person can be underweight but not malnourished but when you are underweight you can end up with brittle bones, anemia, osteoperosis, you might not have your period if you are a girl, lower immune system (so more risk of getting sick), 

You can read more .HERE

My suggestion to you, like already mentioned... give wieght gain a go... try to reach BMI 18,5+ and give it a while, see how it feels. Know that your body should feel better and so should your mind because your body wont have to work so hard to keep you alive each day.

(On a sidenote, because i always get comments about this. No BMI does not say it all... it is quite an outdated thing but it does work well to tell you whether you are underweight and overweight. If however you are mentally healthy, your body works well, your blood samples are good and you can live a life where food isnt a problem and no disordered eating habits are used then being say BMI 18 doesnt have to be a bad thing. That can be someones healthy set point.... for me, even before my ED i was slightly underweight. But after anorexia i needed to be a healthy weight to get my period back as well as having a healthy, functioning body.
    The important thing is to have a functioning and healthy body and mind. Not so much the number on the scale or BMI.)


  1. Hello Izzy,

    Remember I am the 11 BMI girl to whom you recommendedto "increase with about 500kcal every 1-2 weeks so that your body has time to adjust" as I am in recovery process.
    Up to how much calories must I push, i am terrified, actually I am gaining 100/200g every day...and when I see my weight increasing so quickly I have to fight bad thought of food restrictions.

    When I saw I have put on 1 kg in a week (wich can seem absolutely ridiculous regarding my BMI and unsufficient), the first thought I had was to eat less today and not take my night snack bowl of pasta and oïl, yogurt and fruit.... to reduce my meals.

    Then second thought surged, thanks good (!), that have hit bottom and that I did not have choice than face things and continue putting on weight, even if it is hell, unconfortable and so on.....
    but i still struggle eating but gess it will pass that it it just a bad time to go through as my mind is completely fucked up.

    I try not to weight my food, I try not to have bad thought, I think & dream about you and that you did it.
    I admire you and want to be able to do something about my life now that I am almost 40 !!!! Crazy !!!

    I have trouble structuring my meals, do know up to how much calories a day I have to push up to as I have the tendency to greately overestimate my intakes......

  2. I have a question regarding periods. One concern I have is that I have heard that while your body may be at its "optimal" weight as you say and you can be eating well with all the right nutrients and energy , and yet there can still be substantial delay for your periods to return. So how do you know if this is just normal delay or whether your weight is still too low for you? In my treatment BMI was seen as a useful guideline but the GP said a more important indicator was the return of your periods. Do you have any experience with this ? A post about it would be much appreciated and I also think useful for people in many stages of ED recovery.

    1. A gynecologist with experience of eating disorder amenorrea is the best source of information. They can do a ultrasound to see if there is progress in your uterus´ endometrium. And also blood hormone levels tell you if there is starting to be recovery in the production. Recovery takes time!