Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Sunday, January 18, 2015

Working hard all day!!

   Finally an actual update and finally logging onto Blogger for the second time this day, and last most probably.
   Feels like a forever-long-time (is that even a word) day! This morning it was a walk with my dog, though really it wasnt much of a walk because i just slide forward, the whole way and the amount of times i cursed was crazy. Its hard 'walking' on ice when your dog is pulling in all sorts of directions. To those crazy people running on this ice... I salute you. Not even I will do that! Though i have a true fear of falling and ice, so as soon as its ice out i will do everything to avoid it... yes, i will walk several meters in the wrong direction and into the forest just to avoid having to slide down a small down hill with ice!

Below are some photos with Daisy where there was no ice! (Didnt dare take my phone out when i was trying to keep my balance as well as keep Daisy from dragging me in some direction!)

Came home filled up with energy and then sat at the table and worked. worked. worked. 4 hours of hard work and finally, 15 pages, all edited and looking good (though definitely not finished) and my first draft of my project is done. By the end of those 4 hours i was sitting there making weird noises as i was so tired and just didnt want to look at a screen or type of have to use my head. So instead i made myself a snack and just took a break.

I have now made a choice to decrease my lactose and salt intake. Ive known since summer that my body just doesnt work well with lactose but well, thats a problem i havent wanted to deal with because i LOVE yoghurt, quark, cottage cheese.So i am going to cut down on those things, and im not planning to replace with lactose free either... only if i really crave quark. Though its a process of cutting down ,the same with salt. I am a complete salt maniac, but nope.... eating so much salt just isnt good for me. So instead, its different spices i will be using and i can say. Just half a day of not eating lactose or salt and my body is feeling better. So more nuts, dried fruit, fruit, vegetables, eggs etc we'll see how long i last. Im pretty sure this evening i will be craving quark like crazy as that is my typical night snack (a whole 500g+ quark with nuts, dried fruit and some fruit as well!)

BUT.... Im not really planning on talking about these changes on here, as they are changes for ME and MY body and they arent exactly relevant or important to anyone else :)

After dinner i continued with some school work and now.... 8pm i can say i am done, sort of. Still ALOT to do :( But atleast i know i have been productive.

Anyway, ave you noticed how whenever you turn off your mobile and dont check social media its then everyone takes contact with you? 10 different people messaging me, lots of different comments, emails and other things.... so much to check, so much to reply to, so little time !!!

As you might notice, my writing is kind of everywhere at the moment, but i am super tired so i think its best i just shut down and shut off for now :) So have a lovely evening, and tomorrow is a new week!!!


  1. Hey. Have you ever thought about trying to be a vegan for health reasons? I know it would really help your CF. Humans aren't meant to eat dairy products anyways. Our bodies are built to be herbivores. It would reduce inflammation in your body and alkalize your entire system. Just food for thought....

    1. I have thought about it but i know it wouldnt work for me, i wouldnt want to have so many restrictions of what i can and cant eat....i want to be able to take that cookie without wondering if its vegan or be able to go to a friends house and eat pizza with them without having to think about what i can or cant eat. So even if i am cutting down on certain things, i am still going to eat them at times :)
      I also know that with veganism i dont think i would be able to get the energy amount i need for my body.

  2. Hey... I agree 100%. Check out some of angela liddon oh she glows recipes. They are to die for. Especially the chocolate coffee cake and the granola!!!! All vegan and 100% deliciouz