So that you can finally have some peace and silence in your mind, not have a voice in your head telling you what you should or shouldnt do. Or what you can or cant eat. Or when you can do things.
So that you can work on your self love and body love and one day be truly happy in your own body and confident in yourself to smile because you love yourself just like you are.
So that you can have a future which wont be entangled with an eating disorder. Which wont be controlled by a voice in your head, taking away your options and limiting your life experiences as well as life years.
So that you wont have to deal with the consequences of injuries, brittle bones, anemia, osteoporosis, digestive problems, irreversible metabolic damage and if you purge or abuse laxatives or such it can also lead to different types of cancer or other consequences in the future.
So that you can make choices based on your own health and happiness, not based on something like avoiding anxiety and not facing your fear.
So that stress and bad situations wont trigger you and force you over the edge. But instead you can cope with the tough situation and know that it will get better.
So that you can spend time with friends and family and enjoy their company whether you go on holiday somewhere and can enjoy the spontaneity of it all or just going out for coffee or going dancing with friends. But you dont feel pressured to say no because their might be food involved or because it will take away from your 'exercising time'.
So that you can smile at the small things and feel more positive in life.
So that you can be free...... because living with an eating disorder is Hell. Its not a life, its simply surviving. Walking on a balance rope, either walking it slowly towards recovery or falling off either edge into darkness.


i love this
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DeleteThank you for such an inspiring, empowering and honest post...
ReplyDeletejust the dose of 'positivity' I needed this morning :) Xx
I felt quite empowered when i wrote it, so i am glad it helped :)
DeleteThank you soooooooo much for this post! <3
ReplyDeleteIm glad this helped :)
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